ugly truths

nothing can describe th pain im in now. you dont know hw hurting are those truths. i wish it was jus a dream.

1)
never knew meeting up on a wkday is sucha tough thing. seeimg u on a fri
its a bonus. its nt a genuine 'i-want-to-meet-you'
so i shld count myself lucky if i get it and cnt complain if i don get it. and only today thn i get to know it.

2)
thinking tt ur boyf dint meet you bcos he's busy. but truth is he rather meet his fren for gym.

somtimes im thinking why am i so un-important?
what must i do to make u love me more?
what must i do to be ur priority?
what must i do to be th first one you always think of?
what must i do??

i really can feel my heart bleeding aft these two incident. this is how heart -breaking they are.


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speechless

yes im speechless. it has alre gone t th extend whr i really dontwant to say anything and let it be. cos since if it still remains th same aft saying thn whats th point, right?

sick for th whole week and i had as much rest as i could, eat in moderation, really control myself, jus t have a speedy recovery for wkends. but.. ahh. wadeva.

was really quite looking forward to have a relaxing and happy wkend like how everyone else is having it, though i have nth in mind. but i ended up rotting th whole day away at home waiting, doing nth. whats new?

k need t stop whining before i sound like some old aunty! driving tmr! see, like i say, smth'd always happen t make me upset th night before. it will happen v coincidentally jus th night or th day before.

dontknow why, but nth seems to be gg on smoothly ever since i moved here.

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th biggest mistake

i dont know how long more are we gonna be lik tt. it jus makes everyone unhappy upset and mad at each other. tht strange feeling tht lost and helpless feeling tht speechlees feeling jus made everything worse. maybe i shldnt even flare up and jus tolerate it thru like always, it'll go in awhile.
why can things get better and remain as it is? th wk is ending. it doesnt seems to get better and i really dontknow wht to do..

will u tell me u love me if u still do?


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boo!

hate how it tears us apart! boo :<

jus realise i haven been blogging for v long! my everyday is jus slp eat work! ohmanz. this is th 3rd week im wkg alre! time is passing way too fastt. and best thing is, im late almost everyday without knowing tt thr'll be a pay cut ._. zomg. k tt aside.

had hiccups for almost th whole day ytd! on and off. so irritating. and its v v loud when ure talking and u sudd hiccup with ur mouth open. 1 of my colleague actually tot i burp!!! hahaha omg. im such a joke! thn this 2 gals decided to give me a scare to help my hiccup to stop! and it amazingly works!!!! hahah. lunch tday was so horrible tt i dint had a gd lunch! and was feeling hungry before knocking off :( terrible. need t keep sm snacks t standby!

many things had happen t p and i for th past few weeks but im gald its over and we're doing fine nw. pls pls pls i hope things will really be fine. really dontwant anymore of those. its like a nightmare! ohgod.

aiming 1 v pretty wallet nowz! kept looking at th pictures everyday!!! thinking if i shld get it! hahaha. cos im kinda sick of long wallets and it kinda heavy :( hnmm...

k bye gtg go rest/sleep! if nt ill feel sleepy at work tmr!
flyday tmr!! :>

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th saddest time

literally broke down ytd. really cnt control anymore. cnt stop crying and crying and thinking all th negative things. like how'd i be like w/o th boy. and all th unhappiness happening adding on made it worse. eyes were v v v sweollen this mrng! boo :( thankgod for the eye drop. kept using it trying to make it better.
realise im bcoming more n more possessive. i dunoe why too :( i selfish-ly wan every hr min sec. hai. really really v afraid of losing you.. its gonna be terrible :(
p, im sorry.. sorry for all the unhappiness lately sorry for all the conflicts sorry for all the things caused by me D: hai.
suddenly feel v afraid of losing you.
if only we could reset things at times like hw we reset games.. i'd still want to be with the boy, butt ill make it better..
done w first day of work as a logistics officer!! from logistics coordinator to logistics service coordinator to logistics officer. so confused w all the names! learn quite a lil stuffs tday. but rot for almost 3/4 of th day doing nth! even have th time to take a short nap. too relaxed!

first full time work!

yay, i got a job at cwt just ytd aft interview! cool or whattt. no more interviews to go!!! had being gg ard for intervews th past few days. but im glad i have sis w me for th first one! :) hee.

im so bored at p's nw! :( waiting for th boy to remove his bandage! took a few photos and like this best :D


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back!

back to this space aft so long! nth much happened lately. finished work at cousin's. accompnied p everyday. its jus eat, rot and do nth all day. bck to gaining weight :< fatty me. p got my resume done for me and we applied for a few jobs! but all of them wasn't suitable :( gotta hunt for more. butttt im lazyy :/ desperately need a gd pumps now! cant wait to go aldo and take a look! been t centrepoint's once but dint know hw to appreciate shoes :p both i own now are damn chui alre! one alre spoiled at th front :( jus had driving on thurs n fri. done w parrellel parking!! so happy. cos i tot its th most difficult part but amazingly no! still quite careless on road though! keep forgetting same stuffs :/

i kept thinking and looking forward for things to get better, but no. i see it getting worse.

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