dilemma D:

i got so bored at creative & i went to adidas web to have a look. & i saw theseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! OMGGGGGGGGG. & & & a freaking nice adidas shoe! omgggggg :s

the v-neck one is even nicer!

freaking nice luh D: RIGHT RIGHT RIGHTTTTTT!

someone please drop money on th floor & let me pick up. ill spend all in adidas! HAHAH!

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-creative.
-home.
-probably for a run later.
-bye.
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ive made up my damn mind yet im still caught in dilemma again. goddddddddddd, whyyyyyyyyyyyy! why must it be me! whywhywhywhy! bloodyshit! tell me wht to do! DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:

pain luh! D:

my tummy is aching like nobody's business since morninggg! omgggggg. can dieee. ive been having headache recently, idkwhy. so drowsy, so restless. gahhh D: had tuition ytd till 10plus near 11, bcos mr teacher overlooked th time when we were chatting ((: keeps me awake!! my eyelid is 5kg heavy, im damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnit tired! grrr. but yay, no tut frm todae till next week! :D centre is having reno or smething i dunoe, whtever it is. hahah. i slacked a lil todae, & did only th uncompleted tut work. im so stuck to mysoju nowwwwww! so many dramaasssssssssssssssssssssss =/ i know i shldnt be doing this now, i cant help it, im really damn restless this few days! =/
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mommy says i can go rebonding in oct! :D shld i? shld i? hehehehehehehe.

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

caught in th middle; just a lil more time.

[edited] bcos of bly!!
to creative with mummy this mrng bcos dayi is sick. but, its okay, bcos now i have itouch with me ((: i can go onlinee! so im not boreddddddddddddd! :D:D hehe. i had a chat with mummy during her free time. i get what she mean, i understand what she's trying to say, i understand totally! HAHAH. thanks mommy, loveyou mommy. now i'm not afraid to speak up to her, or tell her anything. bcos i know she'll always give me th bestest opinion and advice. i felt happy and relieved everytime aft talking to her (: i know how and what you're thinking & you know what i'm doing. mommy & PRETTY BLYYYY LOVE always my listening ears, there for me, hearing me,giving me th bestest. ilovethem tothemaxxxxxxxx! :D
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what is boyf.
what is love.
what are they for.
hahahahahahah.
who can answer meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
have ppl ever tot of it? haha k ignore me, i know im dumb =\

yay no tut todae!! hahah, why am i so happy -_- 2 weeks gone & its 3 official months frm ytd! HAHAHA. see? hw time fliessssssssss. siannnnnnnnnnn. k soooo, i dint manage to meet elfy ytd, bcos i was really damn tired and restless. my head is aching badlyyyyy! i dont feel energetic at all. im lazy to moveeeeeeeeeeeee! hahah. soo, sis went ClarkeQuay with frens aft sch, meet her aft tht & home. i had my fav fried brownie againnnnnnnn! :D:D hahahaha. spammmmmm! i think for th whole week ive been eating it almost everyday. daddy love th cheese stick i bought for him! :D sooo, slacked, dinner, comp for a short while & starts rotting on my bed.
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mummy tried to act funny when i was using th comp -_- she hide my gallllll! D: grrr. no wonder, i feel so weird but i dint realise it too, until i saw my other bears. thn i start searching for it. tht sister! saw me looking for it, still dowan take out, act nthg happen. idiottttt!
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I WANT TO WATCH THE HAUNTING IN CONNECTICUT! D:

must stop thinking of cabbing!

Happy 18th ELFY!! you! still th same elfy. thanks for bein such a great elfy! always thr to help ur frens, always thr to give them care & concern, always thr to cheer ppl up, etc. too much to sae! im lazyyyyyyyyyyyy! hahahah okayy, enjoy ur day! bcos ill be celebrating with you! HAHAHHAH. he saved me last week! if he dint want to come to clementi to meet me, ill really cab down to np to meet him, without hesitating! I WANT MORE SLPG HOURS! D: DEAD TIREDDDDDDDDDDD!!! my phone is getting more and more powerful! sms halfway can auto shut -_-
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mummy laughed at me last night when daddy told her i fall aslp in the living room eating halfway. =/////////
daddy: eh slp alr ah. still want eat not, dowan eat throw away already hor.
i woke up & continue eating reluctantly.
thn mummy came out to see and said, HAHAHAHA, no batt already hor, faster go in slp la.
daddy helped me clear and wash, while i clean th table & prepare to go to bed.
thnnnnnn, they tried to be funny!
sister: eh daddy say wan play monopoly.
daddy: how to play. i wan play someone also dowan play. no batt already.
HAHAHAH.
why am i entertaining myself. im trying to keep myself awakeeeee. bcos im still very slpyyyyyyyyyyyyy nowwwwwwww!
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i watched a chinese drama last night, th daddy say gdnight to her daughter and kiss her before she slp! she's not a small kid! she's older than me! but i dont have leh! i asked them last night why i dont have, but they laughed at me instead -_- funny meh.

25&26;
-out on both days.
was suppose to go marina to celebrate sister's fren bday on sat, but she change her mind last min -_- grrrrr, make me wake up so damn earlyy, make me rot & do nthg at home -___________-
thanks uh dude, u slow poke, cannot watch th haunting of connecticut! D:
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i feel like cabbing again! grrrrr. bloody shit. self-controooool! hahah.

24;
had a chat with bly love thn dinner tgt with her two other colleague. we went bukit timah and had frog porridgeeeeeee! omg FROGGGGGG yknow FROG?! tht green slimy creatureeeeeee! hahahahah. thanks uh lao shi, i ate a horrible creatureeeee! hahaha, butttt, it was nice! :D:D thn, sister and i went for tuition. & thanks bly love for th dinner! ((:
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i felt like cabbing to tuition, when its just a few bus stop away -___- k i noe its dumb.
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aft thinking through what bly love told me on friday, it makes sense. nomore, really, nomore, ill just ignore you th next time. im sry tht is th last time ill help you. you're so used to it & rely on ppl alot, ure not growing up. u take and go, u dont feel guilty, u don even appreciate wht ppl did for you. now, ure playing hide & seek with me. my patience is running out, how long more are you going to drag. i tot u changed aft going NS, i tot u change for th better. i wont mind helping you if ure like th first few time, u kept ur promise. now? what happen? why th change in u in such a short time? you once told me, ure a rat to ppl, ppl avoid whenever they see you. i felt sad for you, i tried to cheer u up. but look at th sucky attitude of urs, hw can ppl not treat u like a rat? can you tell me why? i see you like my big brother, th second one who's close to me just like sister, but u disappoint me, downright. ure irresponsible, u dont keep ur promise D: someone, please, knock some sense into his head, tell him why is he wrong, let him know he's wrong, blame himself not th whole world, make him change. i wan th very old him, th gd him, th innocent him. i wan th real him to be back. i feel so damn wasted, i really dint wan to do this to youuuu. & i realise ppl ard me are th same, they need to go th hardway. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. why is ppl becoming lik this. gd ppl are starting to extinct, but horrible ppl is increasing. i know, nobody is perfect, but why cant ppl just think, really THINK, & be a gd person.

23's.

you see us eat; i happy!

-acc sis to clementi.
-clementi hse to nap.
-creative.
-home.
-bly's office.
-tuition.
-home.((:
marina square with sis & her friends for lunch to celebrate her fren's birthday tmr! ((:
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23july;
met elfy ytd aftrn, eat like crazy, idk why, but just wan to eat, haha. i had clam chowder & mussels, he had fries. chat,slacked,thn i say i wanna have fried brownie, so ya he had to accompany me!! haha. thn i feel like like eating har gow, so we went cle market to get, haha i swear he cnt stand it, keep complaining and saying no wonder im fat, grr. thn he accompanied me to fairprice to get fish paste & mushroom for dinner((: & send me home. met sister aft her sch & homed.

happy day! (:

suntec with sister aft LC ytd :D LC, chicken feet luh! hahah, happy! so makes me happier when i go shopping! heheh. sister's like damn bloody happy when she saw XW taiwan cafe -_- idkwhy, & she bugs me to have dinner thr! k fineeeeeee. i spend like almost 100bucks ytd! :O sister and i both got a same flip flop :D hahah, finallyyyyyyyyyy! we got something SAME! i got 2 bottom and a top, frm cotton on & mango, while she got a bangle, hehehhehehe. i swear ill wear SLIPPERS, ONLY SLIPPERS when i go shopping the next time(& tht will be idk when, i've nvr like shopping, if i got nothing in mind, shopping not fun!! hahah), i don care! my leg is pain till walau, i wan cry already can. hahah. thn, we cab to tuitionnnnnn ((: mum & dad picked us up aft. mum's like eye big big when she saw me, hahhah. butttt, she dint nag or ask a thing! :D
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D: im abit addicted to taking cab nowadays, sry D: they're just too tempting, hahah. i cannot resist not taking it, when i think of the advantages! hahah. i can just sit and do nothing and not worry anything & reach the destination in a short time! hahahh. howhowhowhowhow.
i dowan to be second bly! haahahah.
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& guess who i saw when we were walking to suntec?!?! elfy and yunhao! i was damn excitedddd! bcos i dint see elfy for very very very very long! & i dint expect ill see him on streets. k haha whatever.

pms, you suck!

want come faster come luh! D: torture ppl only. you make me keep gg to th toilet to check on your arrival. you make me feel so damn uncomfortable whenever i step out of my hse, who noes you might try to be bitchy & come unknowingly. bitch luh, tsk! you make me have one ugly pimple on my face, you make my mood go up and down, you make me crave for food randomly, you give me endless troubleeeeee! D:
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daddy opens internet explorer, the window is small, so me being good, want to teach him hw to maximize it right. know what he say?!?!?! *he maximised it himself before i reach the comp* & he said, 'everything i know, i just keep quiet' ENGLISH SOMEMORE OKAYY. HAOLIAN RIGHT! HAHAH. but tht makes him cute :D

went for a run and walk with parents just now, haha, niceeeeeeeeee :D i asked them a stupid question, '2, 3 yrs down the road, will i still be holding ur hands and cross th road' hahah, dumb i know. tht mummy forever one, she answered tht ill be holding my nf's hand str8,idiot only,forever disturb me only -_- grr bth!

i realise th amount of food i consume each day is decreasing, its going frm bad to worse, i dunoe why. you see, frm 3 meals to 2 meals, thts normal, bcos i dont have 3 meals a day all the time. but gradually, decreases to a standard of 2 meals.

ytd, i had only like half a plate of rice, a bowl of soup and a little fish, today? i had only a bowl of soup for lunch! dinner? very little rice, very little fish & probably a small bowl of soupppp. sigh, whats wrong with my system, haah. i used to eat alot and i enjoy eating alot! really! i see food i like, i wanna eat alre! cfm i must eat, if not ill whine and grumble for it. hahah. okay, nuff said, im in love with fried brownie at cityvibe now! :D yummy!

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i suddenly miss you alot leh, bly! hahah.

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WALAU, SAI LUH, I ACCIDENTALLY DELETE A FOLDER IN MY CAM, BLOODY HELLLLLLLL, LUCKY I SAVED THE PHOTOS INTO MY COMP, BUT PHOTOS TAKEN ON SUNDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY D: NO MOREEEEEEEEE! OMGGGGGGGGG D: WHYYYYYY AM I SO DUMBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB! BLY, WHY AM I AS DUMB AS YOU! OMGGG.

just a little more.

Home for th whole day! gahhhhhhhhh. nvm, LC tmr thn town with sister as she finish sch early! :D:D happy happy. going to sch for 35mins is stupid, really -_- lucky sch very near hse, 10mins walk, or not, ill really die. Sister says need to be abit formal, no shorts no slippers. tmr ill see how many retards do tht, if thr isssssssssssssssssssssssssssss, hahaha sister! prepare for ur death! ROFL.
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now thn i realise i got alot mosquito bites frm fishing on sunday! grr.

There are time when i look in your eyes
I see the love that we share
I see the joy inside

But i didn't see the feelings you hide
And now your saying goodbye
Because your love is done

And all i can think about is you
The way you say you love me too
And everytime i close my eyes i see your face
My love can never be replaced
If you can never be replaced

Baby...

Boy
Why don't you come back to me
Why don't you love me anymore
Boy, you know i still care for you
You know i will love you forever more

There are times when i kiss you goodnight
I feel the love that we share
I feel the joy inside

But i didn't feel what you tried to hide
And now your saying goodbye
Because you feeling is done

And all i can think about is you
The way you say you love me too
And everytime i close my eyes i see your face

My love can never be replaced
If you can never be replaced

All i can think about is you
Till you say you love me too
And everytime i close my eyes

All i see is your face
My love can never be replaced
If you can never be replaced
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i edited it :D

i'm turning whiteeeeeee, i don't want!

20july;
): sister cheat my feelingsssssss! i asked her this morning if she's coming back for lunch, she said yes. when i ask what time is she coming back in the afternoon, she happily said, i eating myself. ?!?!?!?!?!?!??! grrr :@ hate you luh D: now, 3pm & i haven had breakfast or lunch yet!
siannnnnnn, have to stay here till like i dunoe what time till daddy come fetch me D:
whose fault? THT BLOODY PIGGGGGGGG! GRRRRRRR. YOUSUCK! as alwayss!
INCALLSYS SUCKS! NEVER EVER GO THR TO WORK!
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i ignored you not bcos im having flu i dint wan to talk to anyone but on purpose. bcos i detest u so much nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww tht i don even wan to talk to u for a sec or a word, or even an alphabet.

19july;
-fishing with uncle! mum and dad really damn fickle minded. keep wan and dowan. grr. end up also go -_- loooool. things went haywired ytd! bcosssssssss, 8 hrs without food! the first meal i had was at ard 12, and the second meal i had was around 8plus near 9! :O and as usual, fluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! mum & dad naggedddd.

i regret, veryverymuch,

18july;
th same old routine;
-cle to collect sis's apparels. looks quite nice on her.
-brunch at MOS.
-tuition.
-home.
-marina square.
-home.
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u really irritates me very much, i dont find th point talking to u anymore,really. D: how m i suppose to tell you? grr.
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for one mnth, u've alr spent me 68. you said you need it urgently, you gave me a date, i trusted u, so i lend it to you. till nw, 2 weeks has past, not a text or call frm u. why? why do you have to take my trust for granted? im veryvery disappointed with you.
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MUMMY GOT A GREEN COACH FRM JIEJIE! WOW? YES! HAHAHA.

17july;
tuitionnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. Sister's oral ! all th best :D jiayouuuuuu. had a talk with mum when we were back frm tut till like 1am. & we both couldnt slp aft! hahah. we gossiped alot of things. abt tht asshole, saying tht if she have 80k now, we can move out of here, and rent a 3rm flat outside, or even we can go rent condo, hahaha, all the wishful thinkings, next few years they wanna change back to BMW, next few years, they can buy me car, hahah. all sorts of nonsense!

16july;
damn it disappointed with oral D: grrrrrrrrrr. i tried to keep myself calm, really. but i cant help to start being nervous when i step into the room, idk why. damn, i cant talk properly, i cant talk fluently, i doubt they understand what i sae! gdbye merit. dont fail me please D:
DPA PASS PLEASEEEEEEEEEE D: i need you badly! D:
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BLY LOVE, LETS GO YUKI YAKI SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNN!! :D

just for you((:

ytd suppose to meet sister aft her sch and study at somewhr she wants, bcos she wanna TRY. thn sister told me bly's at office, so yeap, we decided to go over. bought many many food for her to cheer her up, okayla, not alot, but still, hahah. yup, so, we met a new friend & he's friendly ((: buttttttttttt, his first impression to us was fierce! hahah. he shared alot of things with us & we gossiped abt bly! bly bth! haha, yupp, so ate, gossiped & home! bly love, see-ing u smile made us more relieved and happy ((: put on tht smile and be happy everyday! there'll be more to come! ^^
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ORAL LATERRRRRRRRRRR ): OMGXZXZXXZXZ. i hug tht gal to slp last night, i dint let it go. its still in my hands when i woke up, but it doesnt help ): thanks uh oral, i cant slp in peace bcos of you! mummy ask if i need daddy to acc me to sch last night, & i happily rejected it. bcos i dunoe wht time will i finish. now, i regret rejecting mummy's offer ): loooooool.

i've said my piece & i felt more relieved now((:

not a word more. i dont feel lik ignoring, but u made me do so. dont even wan t say hi whn i see u. nomore long and laughing convo btwn us. nomore i help u, u help me. gdbye. emo all you want, nobody cares ((:
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ORAL'S TOMMORROW! KILL ME ):

with th way things is going, im really going bonkers.

xiexie ni! ((: a million times of thanks is always never enough.
see-ing this girl here, really cheers me up when i'm down.

& her nice butt

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my heart nvr rest till i got your text.

its suppose to be a happy day for me today, but it dint went on smoothly like hw its supposed to be. why? thanks to YOU, my mood was ruined from level 10 to level 1.
your stove, your house, your gas, you got the damn cheek to say!
so am i suppose t say, my mom's money t buy th food, pay for th gas, or even FOR EVRYTHNG YOU USE, my energy to cook it, i kill my brain cells to think of what to cook,
my precious time put in to cook? whats is compared to urs?
what have you contribute? your house or our house? TELL MEEEEEE!!!
i have no say, i cant even complain to my mum, i cant complain to my dad even more, sister is on the same boat as me, she cant do anything either. thisonly place i can complain!
get me out of this damn house! PLEASE! this sucksucksucksucksucksuck.
IHATEYOUALL! D: i start to learn cooking bcos my mom cant work too much, bcos she needs more rest, bcos i dontwant us to be eveyday thinking what to eat and all kinds of nonsense, not for ppl like u gaming whole day, who dont bother abt anything. ihateyou! veryverymuch! this short post is definitely not enough for me to complain more about you,
you are just too much!

finally finished with DPA! relieved! xiexie ni, bly!! finished one, and another's coming up ): CHINESE ORAL!! THURSDAY!! grr.

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cheerup, bly love. you've done more than what u shld! i feel so sad for u! with me adding on ur burden, i feel so bad!! sighhhh, these ppl are just so.... like what sister sae, POTENTIAL HEARTBREAKERS! you're not wrong, they are just not mature enough to think! dont sad le!! you will always be full of love! bcos sister and i love you always!! like plenty! :D

cheerful is bly! :D

笑起来真美! :D