satisfied (:

firstly, thankyou darling for making this weekend a good one. Its been a long time I last had a full 2 day weekend and of cos a good one <3
things were better these days. and I hope it remains? please, no more nonsense! :(
p came to have dinner w me aft sch on fri before jap lesson. really happy though its just for a short while!! :)
cab over to p's on sat. and th jam is horrible! buttt, so lucky tht I met a good cab driver! he greets me when I got on th cab. thn he kept saying thankyou when I merely answered wht he asks! thn he insist tht I pay him only 14 when the fare is 17plus! and he said tht its not fair to me even when I say its okay. whr to find such good driver!!! really feeling abit regret for not taking down his details and sending in good feedback for him! k tht aside. sat's a sleepy day! both were tired cos p went out till late on fri night and I waited for him! sooo, we rot at home!
sun's yet a fruitful one :D
we went for a run. thn went amk for koi, shop at fairprice and most imptly, bought food!! you never know hw hungry I was! cos I skipped breakfast! back to p's, thn again, we spend our time rotting, tv, eating and all! love times like this. feels like we're bonding! :)
alright, shall stop here! its getting too text-y!
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你可不可以爱我, 可不可以想我.

had been raining these few days and I had to take train to harbourfront and transfer to bus! so irritating, troublesome and worse, costly!! :( double my normal cost!! :p hate th fact tht public transport is so costly!!!
sch's been quite alright. bs assignment done. left w online test and actual exam. thn marketing presentation. and there'll be 2 weeks of break!! woohoo, can't wait!! I wanna work for cousin!! admin work!! easy only. finish work go home already. I hope he wants to hire me ah!! hhahah.
can't wait for this year to end. thn 6 more mnths to kaplan, and yay end of diploma!!
provided I do well and graduate on time! :p
sooo, go me!! I want to finish on time!
sis is OFFICIALLY working at sushi tei!! I hope things go well for her and tht she can really stay for not just ermmmm.. days?? hehehe. gotta go one day and see how she work!! really cnt imagine. I'm not brave like her to work as a waitress or salesperson :p I prefer deskbound more!! k thts all, again, can't wait for th week to end!! missing p a lot alre. feels like I've not seen him for weeks! :/
was in th midst of lesson and suddenly image p in th mind. thts hw much I miss him!!
was kinda cheered up a little these days. I finally feel my existence. But isit good or bad? :( k maybe I shld nt think so much?
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please stop. >:(

waking up to a day lik this really make me don't feel like waking up only. talking w no brain! people like these shdnt even exist! they don't do anything good to the society, creating trouble only. worse thing, living w such ppl, facing such ppl every single day. good thing, I don't communicate w them. don't understand :( forever want take advantage of ppl only. haiz..
this week is yet another busy week, bcos I'm always procrastinating :( sucks much. need to stop!! biz stats was alright so far and I hope it remains! later suddenly back chapters all very hard thn jialat! got to score for this!! At least distinction I hope?! heez.
My hair colour like nonsense only. Hahah sissy owes me a box of hair dye just bcos she dint want to help me on sunday! Orhbeez.
i hate how i'm just invisible to you. it's like i used to be your favorite, and now i don't exist..
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good? or bad?

today was indead a better day. it is probably bcos ytd was so bad tht I don't even wan to think abt it.
k, few good things to share today :)
busy yet fruitful.
woke up to a late mrng, and rot before getting ready to aravind's house warming. trained to woodlands to meet chiawei ard 2plus and went over to vind's jumbo flat! was really awed by tht very big house, ohgod.. so big tht they actually used a room for storeroom!! and there's only 4person living in thr. ate a little and chatted. nana, jx and daron was thr before us and we still left first :p haha. trained back to jurong east to meet mum&dad, thn to uncle's house. waaaa his new house is also niceeee! small and simple! and whats best is th very cooling air they've got. srsly don't feel hot though thr's only one fan in th house w 5 ppl sharing. and I feel a little cold instead! really awesomeeeee!! now I understand why mum said tht 'u go and see one day u sure feel like staying thr!'. heez. rot for awhile and started feeling hungry sooo we went jp to get foodfoodfood! :D th whole day w only one proper meal and ovaltine when I got up.
home aftermath, and I just dyed my hair on my own! dint really turn out good though. but wht can u expect from a first timer right?! geez.
& the best thing of the day is, another cousin of mine got disc almost everywhr!! adidas, US brands bags, crocs and even car services!! heh. excitedz!!
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rubbish

I hate to say this, but I still have to. I really got no one, no place to rant. and I'm feeling really very f-up right now.
whr did th awesome go to?
whr did th beautiful go to?
whr did th best go to?
tht 3 words used to be very sweet, pleasant and bringing a very wide and sweet smile. but now? full of questions. everything seems to be fading and gone slowly... th more I dowan it to happen, th more its gg to happen. must it really be lik tht?? must it go this way?
I hate how a bad loser I am,
always not being able to accept all negative things;
always keeping everything to myself;
always worrying abt th bad outcome;
always failing to have th courage to speak out.
and things had to turn out bad.
all because I'm afraid to lose something tht is precious and impt to me..
no more gd and sweet mrng to start with, no more ending my day feeling satisfied.
no more sleeping with a smile.
everyday is nthg but just another gloomy day. so much tht I really hate waking up knowing its another new day.
nthg but just disappointment.
no more 'iloveyou' truely frm th heart,
no more 'imissyou' truely frm th heart,
no more you hang up no you hang up kind of love.
no more manymany kiss.
no more many things to talk.
no more sweet talks.
no more sweet naggings/reminders.
no more being th first who crossed ur mind.
no more being the only one on ur mind.
no more...
everything had came to a stop.
is it just a short break?
or isit gonna be lik this in time to come?
shld I just learn to accept it?
shld I try my best to make it better?
shld I just hang in thr?
shld I continue putting on a mask?
or,
shld I give up?
which is always th least and which Is almost impossible possibility.
I used to feel the happiest, contented and blessed person having a perfect r/s and of cos a happy family, and a few very best friends by my side.
but now, envying is all I feel everyday.
and it really makes me wonder why can some ppl be so successful?
okay, I need to stop if not the list will just go on and on..
tmr will be a better day! right?
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hate to feel this way.

Hello world!
Am waiting for p's text and I'm boreeeeed. so yeah, here I am blogging! :) look hw the email blogging service is so useful for me!! blogging at the comfort of my bed! :)
full day sch on thurs, met p for a short while, and home.
had sch for only 1 & a half hours on fri! :D shiokness. I tot I won't be seeing him cos I still have jap class in the evening! yupp, so to p's aft sch and left for jap class aft tht. had a quick dinner before gg home. fattening huh.
p picked me up in th mrng, went raffles to collect his race pack, pick his bro up and, back to p's again! thnnnn, we had to bade goodbye in th late noon :( p's going back!! hate how fast time flies whenever we're tgt!
I always can't wait to see p, isit really bcos I miss him or...? :(
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Helped sis to pack her stuffs cos o's over! hurray! Taking my own sweet time doing it slowly. thn I realise... I forgot my assignment again! grr. very fedup w my forgetfulness! and this is not th first time!! But luckily I found help from the calendar's reminder. I hope I won't forget all my datelines again!! Dinner at clem and ended my day w koi! :)
i miss p i miss p i miss p and i miss p!!! :(
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senseless! >:(

nana came over to p's w jx and daron to pass me th present they got me!
soooo sweeeet!! <3

am finally done with econs, and I hope I don't fail? :( I regret a little for not studying hard enough! forgot parts here and there. but well, just hope ill pass even if its a justpass. k tmr's another new module, hope everything is gonna be good. feeling a little drained now from th past one week, need a good sleep on sun when p's gonna go back on sat night. sian!! >:(
sometimes I don't understand wht ppl are thinking :( can go crowded place w partially recovered chicken pox but can't drive?? crap. k whatever, its over anyw, I shld stop whining. it was just a moment of anger. downright disappointed, cos it doesn't makes any sense at all!?
on a side note, was kinda satisfied w the time I had w p. it has really been a long time since we really spent a good time tgt, and make me feel so satisfied. it was always a blink of a day or two and no more.
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read a news when I was on my way home ytd and was kinda shocked by th things tht is happening recently. what is happening to sg?? ohgod.. feeling kind of scared travelling alone, esp at night!
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in a nutshell.

gift frm mum&sissy! (:
cute snowman coach keychain!

morning world! have no idea why am I up so early when I slept only at 1am last night!! am quite relieved nw cos I'm finally done w eoe online assignment&test, marketing discussion first post! now, I'm left w wed's exam, thn marketing assignment to do and yupp thts all! thnn new module is starting on thurs!! >:( so fast!!
mum cooked a feast for dinner ytd. and we were bloated aft eating! too much yummy fooods! teehee. and yupp so tht goes 7thnov. was kinda reluctant to leave p ytd.. cos its still early >:( but nvm, its over anyw! :)
had been w p everyday for the past few days and glad to see him feeling better each day! I feel so blissed being able to take care of him and be thr for him whenever he needs help I hope? and seeing him recovering slowly! can't wait! I'm sure to satisfy my craving, th first thing to do when he gets well!!! thn I wan cycling, tanning, movieeeee!! hehe. so many things!
ohh and I just bought a top online! cantwait!! hope it'd be good!
ok bye, got to get up and go meet th p!
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Never ending.

I knew it was useless but nevertheless, ill still wish and hope for it.
Poor boy had chicken pox ytd and was home to rest! so worrieeed! my heart can finally eased aft seeing him. today's the last day of th week! can't wait for today to end! I wan holiday! I need a short break! :( let's hope today will be a better day?
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srsly feeling veryveryvery moodless and restless nw! had been thinking for the whole mrng yet I still can't figure out. and guess here, is the only place for me to ranttt! really struggling damn badly, feeling very hopeless, and all. I feel the challenge nw, and I don't feel like taking it up...
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I wished & hoped you're not.

I'm suppose to be slpg nw, but I just can't slp! sianzz. there's probably too much things gg on in my mind!! economicseconomicseconomics. ohgoddd. exam's next week! a lot to memorise, and a lot to study. got to get it started asap!! can't wait for fri to see the p :( imy a lotalotalot!
for the first time p called me when he's in camp. shld I be happy or sad? everything just feels so awkward, so doubting, so empty. ohwell, k bedtime! night world! x.x
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forgive?

look at wht mr p did to encourage me (:
sissy got me a pooh and place it on my laptop before I'm home! (:

my darling boy came on fri aft my jap class to surprise me! :D awesomeeee. swear I was really happy, I'd always hope to see him aft class, idky!
get to satisfy my cravings for koi on sat at amk! and we nua-ed th rest of our time. I like! (Y) w no restricted time to go home, so of cos I won't wan to go home so early right? :p home at 1am! so close to having prata before gg home :(
grocery shopping at farrer park w th p on sun, baibai at bugis and assignment, completed only half of it.
p and I were so addicted to coin dozer tht we even have to take turns and play. and I bought a car charger because of tht, hah! cos th batt is running lowwww!
k tht aside, next week's gonna be the last weekend before I'm able to see p :( cos there'll be army boys enlisting, which means 2 weeks confinement! kinda sucks. bye to 2 weekends!! :(
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