happy christmas!

im so bored at home now, feeling a little hungry and sleepy!! boo :(
and i cant take a nap cos ive to wait for mumdad to be back!!

k, lets see what do i have for weekends!met p at pasir ris on fri mrng, thn cab back to his place. rest and went cathay to meet cousin for his laptop. thn we went cine to have a walk and had pastamania for lunch!! its been a really long time since we last dine out ever since he got chicken pox!! was craving for icecream so we had frolick! thn we went to pick his mum up and back to p's. was kinda sad tht i dint spend my christmas night w th p, cos we dont have plans!!
was wearing the shirt tht sis got for p and i, and veryvery excited to see p in it. so i got him to wear! feeling very happy from the start. until we went town, and i suddenly feel very paiseh!! hahah. like so retarded cos i always laugh at ppl wearing the same shirt. if its the same, but different colour, i think its still okay, but same colour and everythingggg... hahha! okay, we should not do tht again! probably, to places nearer and not town? :/ hehehe.
sat was really a long dayyyy! :)

picture perfect! :)

p came to pick me up and got me flowers again!! this is the i cant rmbr how many times alre! i really lose count of them all! went back to p's, had breakfast and did his things. thn we left for marina square to get our last min gift for gift ex and xmas lunch w his frens. spend the whole afternoon thr, and back to p's again in th evening for dinner w his family. we both were so bloated from the buffet in th afternoon tht we share a pathetic small bowl of rice!! hahaha.

back to p's AGAIN aft dinner. bathed and rested, thn we head out to cine to catch rapunzel w tres&zk!! like finally im catching th movie!! really very nice! (Y)
had a hard time waking up on sun cos we slept at 1plus near 2 and wake up at 9!! crazyyy. i was really tired luh!! had prata for breakfast, thn went market to get our crabs from mumdad, yummy! back to p's to put th crab and went amk!! heh, everyone keep asking why always go amk! i dunoe why too. we need to get some groceries at times, instead of gg shengshiong, we go amk fairprice, so i can get my koi too!! :p heheheh. had the usual thing, chawan, sushi, and koi!! :)) i skipped my hazelnut milk tea and share a large aloevera passion w th p!! oh so yummmmyyyy. went back to p's and start our work!! tht is cooking the crabs!! hehe. p's the chief this time and im watching by the side reading th instructions and telling him which to add and blablabla. it dint really turn out tht bad though! so happy to see the smile on p's!! now, i owe him curry! ohdear, im feeling very lazyyyy hahah. went zk's for car wash aft tht. and i played monopoly deal w tres!! hee so fun! im so gonna get it and play w p!! got durians for mumdad on the way back! thankyou p!! had dinner, and back home. there goes the weekend. silly p, called me back again and gave me a flying kiss hahaha, when i was walking to the lift. he probably dont bear me to go? hahaha k im jus kidding! but i was really happy!! cos he usually goes off aft sending me back!! hehehe.
so quite regret getting those durians!! stinking th whole house!! omggg. i smell it at every corner of th house! and i had dadmum to quickly finish it when im bathing!!
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this little note is posted specially for th p. cos i dint have th chance to say this to you, busy man!! and i noe you'll definitely come here! sighh :( seems like we can only communicate here. everyday is just gdnight and nthg else. ohwell, i think im complaining too much.
anyway anyway,
thankyou baby for tht flower. always do all these funny things huh!
but stop wasting your money! flower dies in a few days and they have to be thrown away, as gd as throwing ur money away!!
thankyou p for the fishball snack, really very nice!! i finish the whole pack on my own within a day!
sorry and thankyou darling, u felt wierd putting on tht shirt but u see me being very excited and u kept quiet. i felt rather bad when you say tht to me!! :(
i hope u enjoy ur weekends like i do though i spoilt a few hours of th sat night.
i really hope those were truely from you, and not bcos u dowan to upset me. boo :(
this was already the second time i asked such things so srsly. i really took me a lot of courage and a very long time to decide if i shld!! cos i hate to doubt and ask such stupid qns!
im sorry if i upset you.
and im thankful for awesome weekend.
i love you so much, dear! :))
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i wasted 2 days of my holiday rotting, doing nthg useful!!
creative today to help mum, cos no sch, no work!
was at home almost half of the day ytd packing th room w mum and sissy mainly our wardrobe, too much clothes!! :/
thn we rested and chatted, and decided to go imm for her purifier. and i manage to physco dad to go clem otw to get koi!! heeee. love th queue man! really fast! ^^ went back home for dinner, thn tv and i fell aslp halfway. dunoe why m i so tired!! nap for an hour, waited for p's text and i couldnt get back to slp aft tht :( im awake till 1 am!! doing nthg, but shopping w my phone until my batt low!! hahah. yes, and thr goes monday.
its alre tuesday today, and i cant wait to see th p!! he's booking out tmr night or thurs mrng! but i don even noe if im seeing him :/ k wtv, its new year this weekend!! yay, so damn looking forward to it, i cfm wan spend it w p!!

disappointed >:(

had been working till quite late for the past few days helping cousin to get things done asap. I even brought my work home to rush for him!! almost every night slpg at nearly 1 or 2. waking up at 8plus. so damn drained pls! I really feel tired today tht I kept yawning and my work speed is damn slow! but yet reason I'm slpg late is not bcos of work. bcos I'm waiting for p like every night till I got his text -.- I nvr give up even I noe nthg will happen. but jus can't slp. sighh. whr did tht promise go to? at least a gdnight before gg to bed no matter hw busy you're. It doesn't seems to be happening recently. k wtv.
how can one falls aslp even when he's doing nthg? no I mean, okay if u texting someone and u fall aslp, tht is really falling aslp. but if you're not, thn why isit falling aslp? so its either u don bother or u forgot or whatsoever.
met nana today at bugis. shop and caught up, aft not seeing each other for so long!! I always feel very trouble-less whenever I'm with her! If only I still see her everyday in sch jus like during our bridging course! boo :(
hate my weekends. my sat w p zoom past in a blink of eye but my sun is taking its own sweet time! oh well :( what to do?
met p on sat aftnoon. and had to leave for dinner in th evening cos mum bday -.- was really quite reluctant to go, cos really dint have much time w p! I waited for a week, and when I see him, I have tht finally feel, before I could really have time w him, I had to leave. sucks much. hate times like this. caught btwn 2 impt people :( sometimes I wonder, why can't I have th best of both? you can, he can, they can, everyone else, but not me. k wtv.
I'm feeling really pissed nw, srsly.
I no longer find tht countless love from you. I no longer feel my importance to you. I feel like I'm only at tht tiny corner in ur eyes and slowly losing sight of me. I'm really not afraid to say, this is wht I observed so far. you won't die w/o me. your life can still go on like nthg had happened.
I had a damn horrible dream last night. It feels so real, feels like its hinting me smething. fuck. hate this. it doesn't seems to make any sense lately.
don't even have time to talk, worse, not even a text a day, and I mean a 24hours and not just 12 hours, srsly.. yet weekend is definitely not a time for this.
ppl always say, couples shld sit down and talk. or I shld say, you used to say tht too. but I totally don't agree. I have so much things to fear, wht I dowan it to happen is really happening. I try my best not to upset you even a tiny bit for fear you'd again. but u still did. I tried to close an eye and accept it, but u still don seem to care. I rmbr u saying tht you're afraid doing things tht'd hurt me. I wasn't touched at all. if in th past, yes definitely. say and do differently. I wonder did I crossed ur mind before u do anything.
I'm starting to feel tht no matter wht I do, hw much I try, I still can't satisfy you. am I th one who fail? or are u th one?
shiiiit, why am I saying all this. it must be th doing of pms. i shld slp and not think of anything!! this is rubbish -.-
kinda looking forward to christmas, idky. hope it'll be a gd one! jiejie is having a small gathering at her place! I want swim! guess ill have to give it a miss again! oh well :( jiejie or p?
mummy told me she feel like gg genting this cny! so tht means, genting or p? see I'm forever making a choice btwn 2 impt people. arghhh!
sometimes I'm kinda regretting having a boyf, not tht I regret being w p. I nvr expect it to be so headache.. >:(
Dear Santa, let this weekend be a good and memorable one with th p, will u? please?
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way too awesome tht I can't even find the word in th dictionary! (:

hello world! im finally having holiday!! for.. 2 weeks! not a lot and not too little! so I guess its gd? I wanna enjoy but yet I want to make it useful! :( one really can't have th best of both man! k tht aside! can't wait to share my weekends!! :D
I'm too satisfied! though we had a small tiff which lasted for a very short time! hahaha.
met up w th p on sat early noon. back to p's. lunch, and went loyang. was having a bad flu and slight cough suddenly otw. very restless! andddd, sleepy! back to p's & popped flu medicine. rest. and we had a tiff! cos tht stupid boy dint want to go to th doctor's :( coughing so badly yet so stubborn, sigh.. so eventually we both had to make up and not waste time!! hahah. went for a haircut, and I chopped like almost half of my initial hair length!! cos of all the split ends and dead hair! really need to maintain le! so smooth and nice tht night tht I keep touching it hehee. headed for dinner at commonwealth w tres & p's frens. thn town! we were supposed to catch rapunzel, but changed our mind cos his frens wanna watch easy A and I want too! but we ended not gg for any, cos tickets for easy A were lousy, and timing for rapunzel is at 11plus, and I don't think p can endure! he'd probably jus doze off in th cinema and not enjoy th movie.. went for a walk at cine, thn we went b&j's to look for zoe and had smoothiee! :) good night though its jus sitting thr not doing anything! p got to meet his frens, and I had tres and zoe! hahah. back to p's and yeah, thr goes sat!
woke up kinda early on sun. went beach road for p's stuff. thn amk for manicure & massage, grocery shopping at fairprice and ofcos koiiiiz!! :D heeee. every weekends! nvr fail! and its always so coincidentally we had to go thr t get other things as well! :p kinda in love w aloevera passionfruit greentea! p dint make th wrong choice trying tht! hahhah. left amk and went for carwash before heading back to p's thn we realise tht we forgot to get th shoe tht he wanted! so we had to go back. happy boy finally got tht shoe! back to p's. late lunch, rest, comp. dinner and its time to say gdbye again! :( happening yet fast!
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I started work for cousin jus on wed and th work is so simple!! hehehehehe. srsly, no complains till now!! oh, and i think cousin's very sweet! (: i was doing my work very srsly this afternoon, and he asked if im hungry. i said no, cos i don intend to go for lunch, and i can finish more work for him before i leave. buttttttt, he's being very irritating to trick me!! he actually lied to me tht he need me to carry some stuffs from him. so okay, i followed him, and we went down. thn he said tht he have to wait for someone and pass smthg to tht person first. okay, i waited. aft he pass his stuff, he actually told me tht, lets go for lunch. and im like o.o i tot u need me to carry things for u. and he said tht, he lied, cos if he dont do this, i wont go for lunch. hahahh. so sweet right!! ((: thn on our way to lunch... we saw koi!!! he know i like! and he said tht, okay later come back we buy! he treats me to lunch and koi!! but unfortunately, koi is closed when we're back! :(
finally finished the first basic of jap!! still very half hearted if i shld continue leh :(
im missing p like so damn much now! ive not heard from him for almost 24hrs!! D:
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geez :D

Sis and I went shopping this afternoon! and guess wht! She revealed to me my bday + xmas + sisters' day gift!! hee. excited. we went almost every burberry and RL outlet to shop!! good news, me being small, xs is left w only 1 pathetic piece! well, will leave it to fate to decide which one is available for me! :) sis suggests tht we'll go tgt w p to choose one day! can't wait! :D
on a side note, was suppose to repair my phone too, but bold2 is oos at starhub! :( got to wait for a good 3 weeks! :s
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tiring day.

tiring but yet satisfied! :)
was doing th online quiz for BS th whole damn day ytd. imagine so many hours w my eyes sticking to th comp! dint manage to score 100% only until this mrng when I tried again! so one load off!
and its BS exam tmr! had been studying the whole day! I wanna score! I hope it'll be good, pls! :)
tht aside, sissy and I went clem to look for my calculator and at th same time got our koi!! hehehehehe :D
dint really have a good weekend w p cos time we had is limited!!
p only manage to book out on sat cos of guard duty. so, met him at bk station, and he bought me tako balls!! :D
is like the first time my dear boyf surprise me w food! k la not exactly th first time but th first time aft a real long damn time! :) rmbr those days he'd just surprise me w milkshake, or macs whenever he picked me frm creative if I'm helping mum! can nvr forget hw happy was I!!
k back to topic, thn th usual us, ate, nap, computer, tv! :)
thn to zk's for his 21st.
and our agreement was to get my koi!! apparantly I dint get it! hmpf, forget it, at least I get tht few more hours to see p!
thn sun was standardchartered marathon for th p, 42km!! crazy!! was suppose to meet him at padang, and th blur me obviously got lost and dint noe hw to get thr. so we met at flyers and back to p's! he did his stuff and rested, before we even have time to spend w each time, he had to go back alre :( and whts worse, fieldcamp for a week! tht makes him a busyman, and he can't contact me tht often cos its malaysia network!! boo!
well, at least I had a short 10mins of phone call w him when he's at back to camp last night.
And I'm now missing my dear boy a lot!
only had a text from him today! :(
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yawnz x.x

Just when I was whining on how slow this week is on tues, its alre thurs now!! can't wait for the week to end, I mean, who don't..?
Was having a bad flu ytd, popped two panadol and fell aslp. I woke up again aft.. 2hours plus. and caught p's text this time!! fell aslp for th past 2 days when he texted me!
had been slpg a lot for th past three days, waking up at 10plus or 11, but still sleepy! I wan more sleeeep! :(
on a side note, there's only 1 and a half hour of lesson tmr! 2-3.30!! yayness. but, exam's next weeeeek!
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