disappointed >:(

had been working till quite late for the past few days helping cousin to get things done asap. I even brought my work home to rush for him!! almost every night slpg at nearly 1 or 2. waking up at 8plus. so damn drained pls! I really feel tired today tht I kept yawning and my work speed is damn slow! but yet reason I'm slpg late is not bcos of work. bcos I'm waiting for p like every night till I got his text -.- I nvr give up even I noe nthg will happen. but jus can't slp. sighh. whr did tht promise go to? at least a gdnight before gg to bed no matter hw busy you're. It doesn't seems to be happening recently. k wtv.
how can one falls aslp even when he's doing nthg? no I mean, okay if u texting someone and u fall aslp, tht is really falling aslp. but if you're not, thn why isit falling aslp? so its either u don bother or u forgot or whatsoever.
met nana today at bugis. shop and caught up, aft not seeing each other for so long!! I always feel very trouble-less whenever I'm with her! If only I still see her everyday in sch jus like during our bridging course! boo :(
hate my weekends. my sat w p zoom past in a blink of eye but my sun is taking its own sweet time! oh well :( what to do?
met p on sat aftnoon. and had to leave for dinner in th evening cos mum bday -.- was really quite reluctant to go, cos really dint have much time w p! I waited for a week, and when I see him, I have tht finally feel, before I could really have time w him, I had to leave. sucks much. hate times like this. caught btwn 2 impt people :( sometimes I wonder, why can't I have th best of both? you can, he can, they can, everyone else, but not me. k wtv.
I'm feeling really pissed nw, srsly.
I no longer find tht countless love from you. I no longer feel my importance to you. I feel like I'm only at tht tiny corner in ur eyes and slowly losing sight of me. I'm really not afraid to say, this is wht I observed so far. you won't die w/o me. your life can still go on like nthg had happened.
I had a damn horrible dream last night. It feels so real, feels like its hinting me smething. fuck. hate this. it doesn't seems to make any sense lately.
don't even have time to talk, worse, not even a text a day, and I mean a 24hours and not just 12 hours, srsly.. yet weekend is definitely not a time for this.
ppl always say, couples shld sit down and talk. or I shld say, you used to say tht too. but I totally don't agree. I have so much things to fear, wht I dowan it to happen is really happening. I try my best not to upset you even a tiny bit for fear you'd again. but u still did. I tried to close an eye and accept it, but u still don seem to care. I rmbr u saying tht you're afraid doing things tht'd hurt me. I wasn't touched at all. if in th past, yes definitely. say and do differently. I wonder did I crossed ur mind before u do anything.
I'm starting to feel tht no matter wht I do, hw much I try, I still can't satisfy you. am I th one who fail? or are u th one?
shiiiit, why am I saying all this. it must be th doing of pms. i shld slp and not think of anything!! this is rubbish -.-
kinda looking forward to christmas, idky. hope it'll be a gd one! jiejie is having a small gathering at her place! I want swim! guess ill have to give it a miss again! oh well :( jiejie or p?
mummy told me she feel like gg genting this cny! so tht means, genting or p? see I'm forever making a choice btwn 2 impt people. arghhh!
sometimes I'm kinda regretting having a boyf, not tht I regret being w p. I nvr expect it to be so headache.. >:(
Dear Santa, let this weekend be a good and memorable one with th p, will u? please?
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