I think of us, even when I'm with you.

sighh. how shld I start this post? I've no idea. But I just need to rant.
I feel th fragile-ness of this r/s.
I feel th stranger-ness of this r/s.
I feel th silence of this r/s.
I feel th v dead 'ambience' in this r/s.
I feel tht we're really drifting apart for real.
I feel everything negative.
I even felt tht it might go anytime.
Isit th negligence, lack of communication or what? I really can't think of any other reason.
Why did it become like tht? :(
We used to be v sweet, v close, happy and all.
There's totally no commitment, no excited-ness, no nothing..
Talking abt commitment, what's a r/s w no commitment? makes sense? yup, I was thinking abt it for almost th whole day. Its only less than 2years and there's alre no commitment. I really dare not foresee abt th days ahead. It will fall bad, definitely.
I always thought that these are th few v basic thing in r/s. But no, I'm wrong.
-Being truthful and having 100% of trust. No, not now, but it used to be.
-Avoid doing things your partner dislike. No, it doesn't seems like it. but, it used to be.
-Being th first one who came to his/her mind. Again, it used to.
-A simple yet sweet gdnight to end th day off and have a good night's slp. It used to.
Come to think of it, I haven had a good night's slp for a long time. I haven slept w a smile for a long time. really.
There are times when I really feel like giving up, but I keep myself going, telling myself tht tmr will be better.
When I wake up in th mrng, I'd wish tht it'd be good.
When I sleep at night, i'd hope that it'd be better tmr.
So tonight, im hoping tht it'd be better tmr :)
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