satisfied.

am kinda satisfied with myelf. i complete all my work according to plan. nw just 2 more to go. these 3 days really productive, and useful!! i wont be able to finish without it, really. couldnt get to slp last night. and tot of a few things tht i really need to do to myself. (badly craving for koi these few days, i must be mad)
i need to try to sleep lesser. im spending too much time sleeping. yes, its a good thing because im getting rest. but it shortens my energy span.
i need to go back to my previous healthy lifestyle, when i still goes exercise at least once a week. i fall sick too often and too easily. i just started sch like 4 or 5 mnths ago, and ive fallen sick for already 3 times?
i need to learn not to procrastinate work, for real. though i always try not to, but end up i still did.
i need to change not to trust one easily, even though its someone who's close to you.
i need to stop thinking negative all the time.
and, i need to stand up and walk with confidence once again.. i wont be beaten down so easily, right?

imissyou, my dear boy..
i miss the smile truely from your heart.
i miss you doing silly things.
i miss you giving me the warmest hug i can ever get.
i miss you giving me the heart-melting kiss i can ever get.
i miss bickering with you,
thn we'll end up smiling again.
all in all, i just miss everything about you!
2 more days to weekends!
i cant wait!

need you now

Speechless even till today. And im still trying my best not to. Isit still gonna be the same?
k, no more side tracking, assignment is gonna due tonight 2359. i need to complete itttt.
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i've been listening to this song for the 351341354653754654th time today!

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now
I just need you now
Baby, I need you now

the week finally ends and here comes weekend! my long awaited days. but having so much work to do just dampens my mood for weekends :( was having a fever on wednesday and lucky no sch on tht day. buttttt sis pulled me to sungei road with mumdad, and she got few loots, k good for her, but bad for me! cos im really very weak and my face look really sick! sooo, i had to go to the doctor's bcos my thurs and fri are heavy!!
jap class was alright last night, cos im a little sleepy only.
k i got to go wash up and do my work by afternoon before meeting th p.
i cant wait :( p's making me worried!

relieved!

am finally done w th last min quiz and I managed to pass with 60%, thanks tres' help!! <3 omg I think if not I'd have failed!
But I'm still not done w jap hmwk tht is due tmr!! >:( this week's gonna be a heavy one. just marketing is enough! grrr suckss.
K really need to rest nw. feeling damn uncomfortable in class, freezing for a moment, thn warm for a moment and on and on. grr. with my eyes and face were red!
imissp >:( I want to see you soon!
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you build me up & tear me down

woke up to a sian mrng, feeling rather lost and crap. w sore throat and heavy eyes made it worse >:( plan to do quite a few stuffs but I guess I don hve th mood to nw.
sometimes I really wonder why can't ppl treasure it when they have someone always thr caring for them, showering them w all the love they could give. yet some yearns so much for it, and they don't get it. must life really be tht unfair?
you made me believe thn you made me feels tht I'm wrong.
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imissyou!

its monday again, which means back to sch day! hatesch hatesch hatesch. marketing and economics D: ahhh sucksss. finally a day break tmr from sch tmr. gotta finish jap hmwk and look for an article for econs assignment! yawnzz. definitely need a good slp tonight!
it feels like I haven been talking to p for a long time, he's like so busy and tired tht we dint even have th chance to talk much everytime he's in camp, sucks. >:(
was all excited thinking I could see p!! haiiiiiiiii.
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so happy tht I can't think of a title :)

so happy to receive p's text telling me tht he's happy today :) so, its another good day! caught child eye at amk hub, simple story but yet not a bad movie. a very different horror movie, but I dunoe hw to describe it! :/ haha.
bought sushi and cheesecake at ichiban and koi! :p hazelnut's awesome!! but still, i wont go thr specially just to get it! the waiting time w th humid weather is maddddd. and its kinda amazing tht p did not complain!! see, this is wht I mean, always trying to give me wht I want. one kiss for you, muack!
home aft tht, dinner, tv and home :)
i rejected old chang kee's chicken wing and fishball!! cos im growing fat!! haha.
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though th card wasn't very nicely done and it makes me feel very incomplete, but seeing you so happy really makes me extremely happy!!! my purpose was to thank you for all the love, care and concern you've given me over the past one year plus, and I reallyreally appreciate every single thing you've done, regardless of how small or big it is. also, to tell you tht you've really been a very good boyf. it really upset me whenever you think tht you're treating me badly.
So, once again,
THANKYOU AWESOME! <3
YOU'VE BEEN A GREAT ONE! :)
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Happy girl! :))

so cute right my boyf!
went balestier for founders bak kut teh w tres&zk for dinner. thn p said I could buy koi at clem if we finish early!! :) hehe. super excited. cos I'm gonna try hazelnut!! nice (Y) bought caramel milk tea for sis. end up, mum also quite addicted to it lol!
though today was kind of 'wasted' but was really a good day I must say. P is 'back to normal' tht made me really happy :) its been a long time since I last had 'today'. I was really laughing and smiling frm my heart. Thankyou darling! iloveyou and I hope my everyday will be as good?
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yawnzzzz.

back to the 10-5pm sch. yawn, so tiring. marketing and economics were done together :( sucks. our books were all damn heavy! got to borrow from sis her dkny and I feel like I'm carrying a bomb!! hahah. it makes me feel very clumsy whenever I knock into ppl too! home aft sch. dinner and pigz!
jap class tonight! T.T kinda regret taking it up now, I dint know sch was this heavy!! need to stock up more chicken essence! :p
before I end my post, thankyou sis!! <3 she bought a dress for me again! :))
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damn!

waking up to a stupid cloudy weather tht don't allow me to go tanning! argh. well its okay, I woke up late too :s
Its the last day of hols with th p! :(
caught the switch with p at marina instead. nice (Y) :)
and had swensens for lunch. and back to p's. for the first time I don't feel hot at p's! rest. had dinner. and back he goes to the green man.
I kept sneezing and coughing all of a sudden on the way home! grr :( got to slp early tonight, it's gonna be a long day of sch tmr!
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Lots of things kept running in mind, and I've no idea why and wht is it. It made me look troubled.
it is only on sat when p's friend ask why am I so quiet thn I start to think why. I can't give an answer even for myself.
when I go to sch on mon, another friend of mine also asked me, why is my face so sour, and troubled. again, I can't give an ans, also to myself even until now.
I really dunoe why either! I dunoe wht is happening! :( isit p? sch? family? or wht? Idunoeidunoeidunoe!
hate myself for being so buttered fingers! I accidentally delete all p's text th previous time tht nw whenever I'm upset, I can't go back to them and read :(
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accomplised.

am quite statisfied with today. kinda productive :)
p picked me up in th mrng and we had breakfast at the coffeeshop below my house, very windy day so it wasn't tht bad! plus with my favourite, tht made it even better.
thn p asked if I wan to amk!
whyyy?
koikoi!
hehe cute right my boyf! <3
yes, tried my first koi but I've no idea why did I go try ovaltine but it wasn't tht bad though. I wan hazelnut luh!! don't care am gonna get it another day!
for th past few days I said I wanted to go and try it but we dint have the chance to. happy early in th mrng alre!
and got p a new adidas top :)
thn back to p's, rot, lunch. and helped him pack his wardrobe!! his super messy wardrobe. really can faint. another thing tht made me happy was seeing him happy :) though am abit tiring and my nose kept sneezing aft packing! <3
after so long, so many days/week, so many things had happened, today's the happiest <3
thankyou, sweet.
it makes me have back th feeling again.
k im waiting for him to finish thn go have dinner! bye!
i look forward to tmr's trip to sentosa!
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start of another new module

p had a marathon ytd mrng. its seems like a good one for him. yupp, so we met up aft tht and we literally rot for the rest of th day. had to cab home cos p's too tired to drive me home D:
its mondayyyyyyyyyy. which also means a new module starting. good thing I've only lesson for 3hours today! woah the textbook really hor, thick!! really heavy man. as usual my boyf hor, late lor! hehe. back to p's for dinner. MBS. and home. lol p and my first time!! very nice place! (Y)
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love to be loved by you.

waited for p to finish his photo shoot and he picked me up. lunch at p's. caught eat pray love w tres&zk at cine, kinda boring, p keep figgiting ard -.- lol. fish and co for dinner. home. a day gone just lik tht.
I guess today too :s its alre 1plus nw and I still otw to meet p!!
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my very first jap lesson!

creative. p's. Ikoma.
today's the first lesson of the jap lesson. and I was late :s but ahh I don't care, more time w p :) lesson wasn't tht bad, just felt abit lost :/
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it wasn't a very good day today, lots of things running in my mind I dontknow why, and made my mood go real down. I felt us rather awkward cos there's like something in btwn blocking us to move closer. everything feels so cold and stranger. crap. I hate this feeling. I just makes me feel hopeless :(
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me or you?

am kinda happy p is having a week of break till next wed! :)
we went baibai at loyang and tamp to look for my shoe, but no, I dint manage to find it :( I end my day w pastamania for dinner! finally!!
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I've been thinking all the way back, rewinding back all th things tht happened each day or maybe each week. I really wonder how can love, though just a very simple four letter word can cause so much things?
isit you or me. conflict, unhappiness, complains, arguments or whtever is it. wht actually went wrong. It was nvr tht bad, it really kept me in deep thoughts. I kept as quiet as I can today, and I realise actually everything was still almost the same. nthg much have changed. maybe I shld be lil more understanding, so tht I'll make it better. It was probably me, the one who's asking for more, wanting everything to be perfect, wanting you to still be the best like before, but ppl do change, it will either be better or worse. bcos I myself too, had changed for better/worse? but, I still feel something is lacking, blocking in btwn.. which might never make it better? there's too much things tht one can nvr have enough.
It was again bcos of love, one did it out of love, but dint bother whether it is a right thing anot, just bcos afraid of losing..
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Geez :))

Mummy bought me Gucci Flora! hehe.

I finally collected my specs and I don't have to go specless at home anymore!! My degree went high up to 3xx now!! :(( I really need to take care of my eyes and bring it down again! grr.
I hate the endless problems my parents are facing now, it just makes me feel helpless D:
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Fuitful weekends

I never had such a busy weekends for some time! P and I were out most of the time.
sat;
went army museum w tres&zk at Singapore Discovery Centre! we get to see all the army stuffs which wasn't very interesting but good thing we're at somewhere with aircon! And we get to play with the heavy gun, shooting at I dunoe wht. so it isn't tht bad uh. we left for safra to get some things done. thn to tres' & off for dinner. was home quite early, as we're gg JB th next mrng.

sun;
my first time to JB! very sua ku ah. i've heard lots of ppl going and I dunoe hw is it like. yupp, so we decided to go w tres&zk. I'm rather shocked by the distance from woodlands to thr! such a short distance only!! walk, shop, eat! back to p's aft tht. rest. and home!
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Itchy hands!

Starhub to get my phone changed, and its giving me endless problem even till now! damn itttt.
Party world-ed w sissy and mum ytd @ vivo! O.o hahah. I'm not very interested in elaborating! Hahahah. coffeebean-ed after tht for dinner. home!
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surprise from sis! :>

Thankyou!! <3

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