happy christmas!

im so bored at home now, feeling a little hungry and sleepy!! boo :(
and i cant take a nap cos ive to wait for mumdad to be back!!

k, lets see what do i have for weekends!met p at pasir ris on fri mrng, thn cab back to his place. rest and went cathay to meet cousin for his laptop. thn we went cine to have a walk and had pastamania for lunch!! its been a really long time since we last dine out ever since he got chicken pox!! was craving for icecream so we had frolick! thn we went to pick his mum up and back to p's. was kinda sad tht i dint spend my christmas night w th p, cos we dont have plans!!
was wearing the shirt tht sis got for p and i, and veryvery excited to see p in it. so i got him to wear! feeling very happy from the start. until we went town, and i suddenly feel very paiseh!! hahah. like so retarded cos i always laugh at ppl wearing the same shirt. if its the same, but different colour, i think its still okay, but same colour and everythingggg... hahha! okay, we should not do tht again! probably, to places nearer and not town? :/ hehehe.
sat was really a long dayyyy! :)

picture perfect! :)

p came to pick me up and got me flowers again!! this is the i cant rmbr how many times alre! i really lose count of them all! went back to p's, had breakfast and did his things. thn we left for marina square to get our last min gift for gift ex and xmas lunch w his frens. spend the whole afternoon thr, and back to p's again in th evening for dinner w his family. we both were so bloated from the buffet in th afternoon tht we share a pathetic small bowl of rice!! hahaha.

back to p's AGAIN aft dinner. bathed and rested, thn we head out to cine to catch rapunzel w tres&zk!! like finally im catching th movie!! really very nice! (Y)
had a hard time waking up on sun cos we slept at 1plus near 2 and wake up at 9!! crazyyy. i was really tired luh!! had prata for breakfast, thn went market to get our crabs from mumdad, yummy! back to p's to put th crab and went amk!! heh, everyone keep asking why always go amk! i dunoe why too. we need to get some groceries at times, instead of gg shengshiong, we go amk fairprice, so i can get my koi too!! :p heheheh. had the usual thing, chawan, sushi, and koi!! :)) i skipped my hazelnut milk tea and share a large aloevera passion w th p!! oh so yummmmyyyy. went back to p's and start our work!! tht is cooking the crabs!! hehe. p's the chief this time and im watching by the side reading th instructions and telling him which to add and blablabla. it dint really turn out tht bad though! so happy to see the smile on p's!! now, i owe him curry! ohdear, im feeling very lazyyyy hahah. went zk's for car wash aft tht. and i played monopoly deal w tres!! hee so fun! im so gonna get it and play w p!! got durians for mumdad on the way back! thankyou p!! had dinner, and back home. there goes the weekend. silly p, called me back again and gave me a flying kiss hahaha, when i was walking to the lift. he probably dont bear me to go? hahaha k im jus kidding! but i was really happy!! cos he usually goes off aft sending me back!! hehehe.
so quite regret getting those durians!! stinking th whole house!! omggg. i smell it at every corner of th house! and i had dadmum to quickly finish it when im bathing!!
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this little note is posted specially for th p. cos i dint have th chance to say this to you, busy man!! and i noe you'll definitely come here! sighh :( seems like we can only communicate here. everyday is just gdnight and nthg else. ohwell, i think im complaining too much.
anyway anyway,
thankyou baby for tht flower. always do all these funny things huh!
but stop wasting your money! flower dies in a few days and they have to be thrown away, as gd as throwing ur money away!!
thankyou p for the fishball snack, really very nice!! i finish the whole pack on my own within a day!
sorry and thankyou darling, u felt wierd putting on tht shirt but u see me being very excited and u kept quiet. i felt rather bad when you say tht to me!! :(
i hope u enjoy ur weekends like i do though i spoilt a few hours of th sat night.
i really hope those were truely from you, and not bcos u dowan to upset me. boo :(
this was already the second time i asked such things so srsly. i really took me a lot of courage and a very long time to decide if i shld!! cos i hate to doubt and ask such stupid qns!
im sorry if i upset you.
and im thankful for awesome weekend.
i love you so much, dear! :))
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i wasted 2 days of my holiday rotting, doing nthg useful!!
creative today to help mum, cos no sch, no work!
was at home almost half of the day ytd packing th room w mum and sissy mainly our wardrobe, too much clothes!! :/
thn we rested and chatted, and decided to go imm for her purifier. and i manage to physco dad to go clem otw to get koi!! heeee. love th queue man! really fast! ^^ went back home for dinner, thn tv and i fell aslp halfway. dunoe why m i so tired!! nap for an hour, waited for p's text and i couldnt get back to slp aft tht :( im awake till 1 am!! doing nthg, but shopping w my phone until my batt low!! hahah. yes, and thr goes monday.
its alre tuesday today, and i cant wait to see th p!! he's booking out tmr night or thurs mrng! but i don even noe if im seeing him :/ k wtv, its new year this weekend!! yay, so damn looking forward to it, i cfm wan spend it w p!!

disappointed >:(

had been working till quite late for the past few days helping cousin to get things done asap. I even brought my work home to rush for him!! almost every night slpg at nearly 1 or 2. waking up at 8plus. so damn drained pls! I really feel tired today tht I kept yawning and my work speed is damn slow! but yet reason I'm slpg late is not bcos of work. bcos I'm waiting for p like every night till I got his text -.- I nvr give up even I noe nthg will happen. but jus can't slp. sighh. whr did tht promise go to? at least a gdnight before gg to bed no matter hw busy you're. It doesn't seems to be happening recently. k wtv.
how can one falls aslp even when he's doing nthg? no I mean, okay if u texting someone and u fall aslp, tht is really falling aslp. but if you're not, thn why isit falling aslp? so its either u don bother or u forgot or whatsoever.
met nana today at bugis. shop and caught up, aft not seeing each other for so long!! I always feel very trouble-less whenever I'm with her! If only I still see her everyday in sch jus like during our bridging course! boo :(
hate my weekends. my sat w p zoom past in a blink of eye but my sun is taking its own sweet time! oh well :( what to do?
met p on sat aftnoon. and had to leave for dinner in th evening cos mum bday -.- was really quite reluctant to go, cos really dint have much time w p! I waited for a week, and when I see him, I have tht finally feel, before I could really have time w him, I had to leave. sucks much. hate times like this. caught btwn 2 impt people :( sometimes I wonder, why can't I have th best of both? you can, he can, they can, everyone else, but not me. k wtv.
I'm feeling really pissed nw, srsly.
I no longer find tht countless love from you. I no longer feel my importance to you. I feel like I'm only at tht tiny corner in ur eyes and slowly losing sight of me. I'm really not afraid to say, this is wht I observed so far. you won't die w/o me. your life can still go on like nthg had happened.
I had a damn horrible dream last night. It feels so real, feels like its hinting me smething. fuck. hate this. it doesn't seems to make any sense lately.
don't even have time to talk, worse, not even a text a day, and I mean a 24hours and not just 12 hours, srsly.. yet weekend is definitely not a time for this.
ppl always say, couples shld sit down and talk. or I shld say, you used to say tht too. but I totally don't agree. I have so much things to fear, wht I dowan it to happen is really happening. I try my best not to upset you even a tiny bit for fear you'd again. but u still did. I tried to close an eye and accept it, but u still don seem to care. I rmbr u saying tht you're afraid doing things tht'd hurt me. I wasn't touched at all. if in th past, yes definitely. say and do differently. I wonder did I crossed ur mind before u do anything.
I'm starting to feel tht no matter wht I do, hw much I try, I still can't satisfy you. am I th one who fail? or are u th one?
shiiiit, why am I saying all this. it must be th doing of pms. i shld slp and not think of anything!! this is rubbish -.-
kinda looking forward to christmas, idky. hope it'll be a gd one! jiejie is having a small gathering at her place! I want swim! guess ill have to give it a miss again! oh well :( jiejie or p?
mummy told me she feel like gg genting this cny! so tht means, genting or p? see I'm forever making a choice btwn 2 impt people. arghhh!
sometimes I'm kinda regretting having a boyf, not tht I regret being w p. I nvr expect it to be so headache.. >:(
Dear Santa, let this weekend be a good and memorable one with th p, will u? please?
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way too awesome tht I can't even find the word in th dictionary! (:

hello world! im finally having holiday!! for.. 2 weeks! not a lot and not too little! so I guess its gd? I wanna enjoy but yet I want to make it useful! :( one really can't have th best of both man! k tht aside! can't wait to share my weekends!! :D
I'm too satisfied! though we had a small tiff which lasted for a very short time! hahaha.
met up w th p on sat early noon. back to p's. lunch, and went loyang. was having a bad flu and slight cough suddenly otw. very restless! andddd, sleepy! back to p's & popped flu medicine. rest. and we had a tiff! cos tht stupid boy dint want to go to th doctor's :( coughing so badly yet so stubborn, sigh.. so eventually we both had to make up and not waste time!! hahah. went for a haircut, and I chopped like almost half of my initial hair length!! cos of all the split ends and dead hair! really need to maintain le! so smooth and nice tht night tht I keep touching it hehee. headed for dinner at commonwealth w tres & p's frens. thn town! we were supposed to catch rapunzel, but changed our mind cos his frens wanna watch easy A and I want too! but we ended not gg for any, cos tickets for easy A were lousy, and timing for rapunzel is at 11plus, and I don't think p can endure! he'd probably jus doze off in th cinema and not enjoy th movie.. went for a walk at cine, thn we went b&j's to look for zoe and had smoothiee! :) good night though its jus sitting thr not doing anything! p got to meet his frens, and I had tres and zoe! hahah. back to p's and yeah, thr goes sat!
woke up kinda early on sun. went beach road for p's stuff. thn amk for manicure & massage, grocery shopping at fairprice and ofcos koiiiiz!! :D heeee. every weekends! nvr fail! and its always so coincidentally we had to go thr t get other things as well! :p kinda in love w aloevera passionfruit greentea! p dint make th wrong choice trying tht! hahhah. left amk and went for carwash before heading back to p's thn we realise tht we forgot to get th shoe tht he wanted! so we had to go back. happy boy finally got tht shoe! back to p's. late lunch, rest, comp. dinner and its time to say gdbye again! :( happening yet fast!
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I started work for cousin jus on wed and th work is so simple!! hehehehehe. srsly, no complains till now!! oh, and i think cousin's very sweet! (: i was doing my work very srsly this afternoon, and he asked if im hungry. i said no, cos i don intend to go for lunch, and i can finish more work for him before i leave. buttttttt, he's being very irritating to trick me!! he actually lied to me tht he need me to carry some stuffs from him. so okay, i followed him, and we went down. thn he said tht he have to wait for someone and pass smthg to tht person first. okay, i waited. aft he pass his stuff, he actually told me tht, lets go for lunch. and im like o.o i tot u need me to carry things for u. and he said tht, he lied, cos if he dont do this, i wont go for lunch. hahahh. so sweet right!! ((: thn on our way to lunch... we saw koi!!! he know i like! and he said tht, okay later come back we buy! he treats me to lunch and koi!! but unfortunately, koi is closed when we're back! :(
finally finished the first basic of jap!! still very half hearted if i shld continue leh :(
im missing p like so damn much now! ive not heard from him for almost 24hrs!! D:
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geez :D

Sis and I went shopping this afternoon! and guess wht! She revealed to me my bday + xmas + sisters' day gift!! hee. excited. we went almost every burberry and RL outlet to shop!! good news, me being small, xs is left w only 1 pathetic piece! well, will leave it to fate to decide which one is available for me! :) sis suggests tht we'll go tgt w p to choose one day! can't wait! :D
on a side note, was suppose to repair my phone too, but bold2 is oos at starhub! :( got to wait for a good 3 weeks! :s
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tiring day.

tiring but yet satisfied! :)
was doing th online quiz for BS th whole damn day ytd. imagine so many hours w my eyes sticking to th comp! dint manage to score 100% only until this mrng when I tried again! so one load off!
and its BS exam tmr! had been studying the whole day! I wanna score! I hope it'll be good, pls! :)
tht aside, sissy and I went clem to look for my calculator and at th same time got our koi!! hehehehehe :D
dint really have a good weekend w p cos time we had is limited!!
p only manage to book out on sat cos of guard duty. so, met him at bk station, and he bought me tako balls!! :D
is like the first time my dear boyf surprise me w food! k la not exactly th first time but th first time aft a real long damn time! :) rmbr those days he'd just surprise me w milkshake, or macs whenever he picked me frm creative if I'm helping mum! can nvr forget hw happy was I!!
k back to topic, thn th usual us, ate, nap, computer, tv! :)
thn to zk's for his 21st.
and our agreement was to get my koi!! apparantly I dint get it! hmpf, forget it, at least I get tht few more hours to see p!
thn sun was standardchartered marathon for th p, 42km!! crazy!! was suppose to meet him at padang, and th blur me obviously got lost and dint noe hw to get thr. so we met at flyers and back to p's! he did his stuff and rested, before we even have time to spend w each time, he had to go back alre :( and whts worse, fieldcamp for a week! tht makes him a busyman, and he can't contact me tht often cos its malaysia network!! boo!
well, at least I had a short 10mins of phone call w him when he's at back to camp last night.
And I'm now missing my dear boy a lot!
only had a text from him today! :(
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yawnz x.x

Just when I was whining on how slow this week is on tues, its alre thurs now!! can't wait for the week to end, I mean, who don't..?
Was having a bad flu ytd, popped two panadol and fell aslp. I woke up again aft.. 2hours plus. and caught p's text this time!! fell aslp for th past 2 days when he texted me!
had been slpg a lot for th past three days, waking up at 10plus or 11, but still sleepy! I wan more sleeeep! :(
on a side note, there's only 1 and a half hour of lesson tmr! 2-3.30!! yayness. but, exam's next weeeeek!
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satisfied (:

firstly, thankyou darling for making this weekend a good one. Its been a long time I last had a full 2 day weekend and of cos a good one <3
things were better these days. and I hope it remains? please, no more nonsense! :(
p came to have dinner w me aft sch on fri before jap lesson. really happy though its just for a short while!! :)
cab over to p's on sat. and th jam is horrible! buttt, so lucky tht I met a good cab driver! he greets me when I got on th cab. thn he kept saying thankyou when I merely answered wht he asks! thn he insist tht I pay him only 14 when the fare is 17plus! and he said tht its not fair to me even when I say its okay. whr to find such good driver!!! really feeling abit regret for not taking down his details and sending in good feedback for him! k tht aside. sat's a sleepy day! both were tired cos p went out till late on fri night and I waited for him! sooo, we rot at home!
sun's yet a fruitful one :D
we went for a run. thn went amk for koi, shop at fairprice and most imptly, bought food!! you never know hw hungry I was! cos I skipped breakfast! back to p's, thn again, we spend our time rotting, tv, eating and all! love times like this. feels like we're bonding! :)
alright, shall stop here! its getting too text-y!
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你可不可以爱我, 可不可以想我.

had been raining these few days and I had to take train to harbourfront and transfer to bus! so irritating, troublesome and worse, costly!! :( double my normal cost!! :p hate th fact tht public transport is so costly!!!
sch's been quite alright. bs assignment done. left w online test and actual exam. thn marketing presentation. and there'll be 2 weeks of break!! woohoo, can't wait!! I wanna work for cousin!! admin work!! easy only. finish work go home already. I hope he wants to hire me ah!! hhahah.
can't wait for this year to end. thn 6 more mnths to kaplan, and yay end of diploma!!
provided I do well and graduate on time! :p
sooo, go me!! I want to finish on time!
sis is OFFICIALLY working at sushi tei!! I hope things go well for her and tht she can really stay for not just ermmmm.. days?? hehehe. gotta go one day and see how she work!! really cnt imagine. I'm not brave like her to work as a waitress or salesperson :p I prefer deskbound more!! k thts all, again, can't wait for th week to end!! missing p a lot alre. feels like I've not seen him for weeks! :/
was in th midst of lesson and suddenly image p in th mind. thts hw much I miss him!!
was kinda cheered up a little these days. I finally feel my existence. But isit good or bad? :( k maybe I shld nt think so much?
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please stop. >:(

waking up to a day lik this really make me don't feel like waking up only. talking w no brain! people like these shdnt even exist! they don't do anything good to the society, creating trouble only. worse thing, living w such ppl, facing such ppl every single day. good thing, I don't communicate w them. don't understand :( forever want take advantage of ppl only. haiz..
this week is yet another busy week, bcos I'm always procrastinating :( sucks much. need to stop!! biz stats was alright so far and I hope it remains! later suddenly back chapters all very hard thn jialat! got to score for this!! At least distinction I hope?! heez.
My hair colour like nonsense only. Hahah sissy owes me a box of hair dye just bcos she dint want to help me on sunday! Orhbeez.
i hate how i'm just invisible to you. it's like i used to be your favorite, and now i don't exist..
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good? or bad?

today was indead a better day. it is probably bcos ytd was so bad tht I don't even wan to think abt it.
k, few good things to share today :)
busy yet fruitful.
woke up to a late mrng, and rot before getting ready to aravind's house warming. trained to woodlands to meet chiawei ard 2plus and went over to vind's jumbo flat! was really awed by tht very big house, ohgod.. so big tht they actually used a room for storeroom!! and there's only 4person living in thr. ate a little and chatted. nana, jx and daron was thr before us and we still left first :p haha. trained back to jurong east to meet mum&dad, thn to uncle's house. waaaa his new house is also niceeee! small and simple! and whats best is th very cooling air they've got. srsly don't feel hot though thr's only one fan in th house w 5 ppl sharing. and I feel a little cold instead! really awesomeeeee!! now I understand why mum said tht 'u go and see one day u sure feel like staying thr!'. heez. rot for awhile and started feeling hungry sooo we went jp to get foodfoodfood! :D th whole day w only one proper meal and ovaltine when I got up.
home aftermath, and I just dyed my hair on my own! dint really turn out good though. but wht can u expect from a first timer right?! geez.
& the best thing of the day is, another cousin of mine got disc almost everywhr!! adidas, US brands bags, crocs and even car services!! heh. excitedz!!
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rubbish

I hate to say this, but I still have to. I really got no one, no place to rant. and I'm feeling really very f-up right now.
whr did th awesome go to?
whr did th beautiful go to?
whr did th best go to?
tht 3 words used to be very sweet, pleasant and bringing a very wide and sweet smile. but now? full of questions. everything seems to be fading and gone slowly... th more I dowan it to happen, th more its gg to happen. must it really be lik tht?? must it go this way?
I hate how a bad loser I am,
always not being able to accept all negative things;
always keeping everything to myself;
always worrying abt th bad outcome;
always failing to have th courage to speak out.
and things had to turn out bad.
all because I'm afraid to lose something tht is precious and impt to me..
no more gd and sweet mrng to start with, no more ending my day feeling satisfied.
no more sleeping with a smile.
everyday is nthg but just another gloomy day. so much tht I really hate waking up knowing its another new day.
nthg but just disappointment.
no more 'iloveyou' truely frm th heart,
no more 'imissyou' truely frm th heart,
no more you hang up no you hang up kind of love.
no more manymany kiss.
no more many things to talk.
no more sweet talks.
no more sweet naggings/reminders.
no more being th first who crossed ur mind.
no more being the only one on ur mind.
no more...
everything had came to a stop.
is it just a short break?
or isit gonna be lik this in time to come?
shld I just learn to accept it?
shld I try my best to make it better?
shld I just hang in thr?
shld I continue putting on a mask?
or,
shld I give up?
which is always th least and which Is almost impossible possibility.
I used to feel the happiest, contented and blessed person having a perfect r/s and of cos a happy family, and a few very best friends by my side.
but now, envying is all I feel everyday.
and it really makes me wonder why can some ppl be so successful?
okay, I need to stop if not the list will just go on and on..
tmr will be a better day! right?
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hate to feel this way.

Hello world!
Am waiting for p's text and I'm boreeeeed. so yeah, here I am blogging! :) look hw the email blogging service is so useful for me!! blogging at the comfort of my bed! :)
full day sch on thurs, met p for a short while, and home.
had sch for only 1 & a half hours on fri! :D shiokness. I tot I won't be seeing him cos I still have jap class in the evening! yupp, so to p's aft sch and left for jap class aft tht. had a quick dinner before gg home. fattening huh.
p picked me up in th mrng, went raffles to collect his race pack, pick his bro up and, back to p's again! thnnnn, we had to bade goodbye in th late noon :( p's going back!! hate how fast time flies whenever we're tgt!
I always can't wait to see p, isit really bcos I miss him or...? :(
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Helped sis to pack her stuffs cos o's over! hurray! Taking my own sweet time doing it slowly. thn I realise... I forgot my assignment again! grr. very fedup w my forgetfulness! and this is not th first time!! But luckily I found help from the calendar's reminder. I hope I won't forget all my datelines again!! Dinner at clem and ended my day w koi! :)
i miss p i miss p i miss p and i miss p!!! :(
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senseless! >:(

nana came over to p's w jx and daron to pass me th present they got me!
soooo sweeeet!! <3

am finally done with econs, and I hope I don't fail? :( I regret a little for not studying hard enough! forgot parts here and there. but well, just hope ill pass even if its a justpass. k tmr's another new module, hope everything is gonna be good. feeling a little drained now from th past one week, need a good sleep on sun when p's gonna go back on sat night. sian!! >:(
sometimes I don't understand wht ppl are thinking :( can go crowded place w partially recovered chicken pox but can't drive?? crap. k whatever, its over anyw, I shld stop whining. it was just a moment of anger. downright disappointed, cos it doesn't makes any sense at all!?
on a side note, was kinda satisfied w the time I had w p. it has really been a long time since we really spent a good time tgt, and make me feel so satisfied. it was always a blink of a day or two and no more.
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read a news when I was on my way home ytd and was kinda shocked by th things tht is happening recently. what is happening to sg?? ohgod.. feeling kind of scared travelling alone, esp at night!
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in a nutshell.

gift frm mum&sissy! (:
cute snowman coach keychain!

morning world! have no idea why am I up so early when I slept only at 1am last night!! am quite relieved nw cos I'm finally done w eoe online assignment&test, marketing discussion first post! now, I'm left w wed's exam, thn marketing assignment to do and yupp thts all! thnn new module is starting on thurs!! >:( so fast!!
mum cooked a feast for dinner ytd. and we were bloated aft eating! too much yummy fooods! teehee. and yupp so tht goes 7thnov. was kinda reluctant to leave p ytd.. cos its still early >:( but nvm, its over anyw! :)
had been w p everyday for the past few days and glad to see him feeling better each day! I feel so blissed being able to take care of him and be thr for him whenever he needs help I hope? and seeing him recovering slowly! can't wait! I'm sure to satisfy my craving, th first thing to do when he gets well!!! thn I wan cycling, tanning, movieeeee!! hehe. so many things!
ohh and I just bought a top online! cantwait!! hope it'd be good!
ok bye, got to get up and go meet th p!
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Never ending.

I knew it was useless but nevertheless, ill still wish and hope for it.
Poor boy had chicken pox ytd and was home to rest! so worrieeed! my heart can finally eased aft seeing him. today's the last day of th week! can't wait for today to end! I wan holiday! I need a short break! :( let's hope today will be a better day?
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srsly feeling veryveryvery moodless and restless nw! had been thinking for the whole mrng yet I still can't figure out. and guess here, is the only place for me to ranttt! really struggling damn badly, feeling very hopeless, and all. I feel the challenge nw, and I don't feel like taking it up...
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I wished & hoped you're not.

I'm suppose to be slpg nw, but I just can't slp! sianzz. there's probably too much things gg on in my mind!! economicseconomicseconomics. ohgoddd. exam's next week! a lot to memorise, and a lot to study. got to get it started asap!! can't wait for fri to see the p :( imy a lotalotalot!
for the first time p called me when he's in camp. shld I be happy or sad? everything just feels so awkward, so doubting, so empty. ohwell, k bedtime! night world! x.x
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forgive?

look at wht mr p did to encourage me (:
sissy got me a pooh and place it on my laptop before I'm home! (:

my darling boy came on fri aft my jap class to surprise me! :D awesomeeee. swear I was really happy, I'd always hope to see him aft class, idky!
get to satisfy my cravings for koi on sat at amk! and we nua-ed th rest of our time. I like! (Y) w no restricted time to go home, so of cos I won't wan to go home so early right? :p home at 1am! so close to having prata before gg home :(
grocery shopping at farrer park w th p on sun, baibai at bugis and assignment, completed only half of it.
p and I were so addicted to coin dozer tht we even have to take turns and play. and I bought a car charger because of tht, hah! cos th batt is running lowwww!
k tht aside, next week's gonna be the last weekend before I'm able to see p :( cos there'll be army boys enlisting, which means 2 weeks confinement! kinda sucks. bye to 2 weekends!! :(
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satisfied.

am kinda satisfied with myelf. i complete all my work according to plan. nw just 2 more to go. these 3 days really productive, and useful!! i wont be able to finish without it, really. couldnt get to slp last night. and tot of a few things tht i really need to do to myself. (badly craving for koi these few days, i must be mad)
i need to try to sleep lesser. im spending too much time sleeping. yes, its a good thing because im getting rest. but it shortens my energy span.
i need to go back to my previous healthy lifestyle, when i still goes exercise at least once a week. i fall sick too often and too easily. i just started sch like 4 or 5 mnths ago, and ive fallen sick for already 3 times?
i need to learn not to procrastinate work, for real. though i always try not to, but end up i still did.
i need to change not to trust one easily, even though its someone who's close to you.
i need to stop thinking negative all the time.
and, i need to stand up and walk with confidence once again.. i wont be beaten down so easily, right?

imissyou, my dear boy..
i miss the smile truely from your heart.
i miss you doing silly things.
i miss you giving me the warmest hug i can ever get.
i miss you giving me the heart-melting kiss i can ever get.
i miss bickering with you,
thn we'll end up smiling again.
all in all, i just miss everything about you!
2 more days to weekends!
i cant wait!

need you now

Speechless even till today. And im still trying my best not to. Isit still gonna be the same?
k, no more side tracking, assignment is gonna due tonight 2359. i need to complete itttt.
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i've been listening to this song for the 351341354653754654th time today!

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now
I just need you now
Baby, I need you now

the week finally ends and here comes weekend! my long awaited days. but having so much work to do just dampens my mood for weekends :( was having a fever on wednesday and lucky no sch on tht day. buttttt sis pulled me to sungei road with mumdad, and she got few loots, k good for her, but bad for me! cos im really very weak and my face look really sick! sooo, i had to go to the doctor's bcos my thurs and fri are heavy!!
jap class was alright last night, cos im a little sleepy only.
k i got to go wash up and do my work by afternoon before meeting th p.
i cant wait :( p's making me worried!

relieved!

am finally done w th last min quiz and I managed to pass with 60%, thanks tres' help!! <3 omg I think if not I'd have failed!
But I'm still not done w jap hmwk tht is due tmr!! >:( this week's gonna be a heavy one. just marketing is enough! grrr suckss.
K really need to rest nw. feeling damn uncomfortable in class, freezing for a moment, thn warm for a moment and on and on. grr. with my eyes and face were red!
imissp >:( I want to see you soon!
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you build me up & tear me down

woke up to a sian mrng, feeling rather lost and crap. w sore throat and heavy eyes made it worse >:( plan to do quite a few stuffs but I guess I don hve th mood to nw.
sometimes I really wonder why can't ppl treasure it when they have someone always thr caring for them, showering them w all the love they could give. yet some yearns so much for it, and they don't get it. must life really be tht unfair?
you made me believe thn you made me feels tht I'm wrong.
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imissyou!

its monday again, which means back to sch day! hatesch hatesch hatesch. marketing and economics D: ahhh sucksss. finally a day break tmr from sch tmr. gotta finish jap hmwk and look for an article for econs assignment! yawnzz. definitely need a good slp tonight!
it feels like I haven been talking to p for a long time, he's like so busy and tired tht we dint even have th chance to talk much everytime he's in camp, sucks. >:(
was all excited thinking I could see p!! haiiiiiiiii.
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so happy tht I can't think of a title :)

so happy to receive p's text telling me tht he's happy today :) so, its another good day! caught child eye at amk hub, simple story but yet not a bad movie. a very different horror movie, but I dunoe hw to describe it! :/ haha.
bought sushi and cheesecake at ichiban and koi! :p hazelnut's awesome!! but still, i wont go thr specially just to get it! the waiting time w th humid weather is maddddd. and its kinda amazing tht p did not complain!! see, this is wht I mean, always trying to give me wht I want. one kiss for you, muack!
home aft tht, dinner, tv and home :)
i rejected old chang kee's chicken wing and fishball!! cos im growing fat!! haha.
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though th card wasn't very nicely done and it makes me feel very incomplete, but seeing you so happy really makes me extremely happy!!! my purpose was to thank you for all the love, care and concern you've given me over the past one year plus, and I reallyreally appreciate every single thing you've done, regardless of how small or big it is. also, to tell you tht you've really been a very good boyf. it really upset me whenever you think tht you're treating me badly.
So, once again,
THANKYOU AWESOME! <3
YOU'VE BEEN A GREAT ONE! :)
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Happy girl! :))

so cute right my boyf!
went balestier for founders bak kut teh w tres&zk for dinner. thn p said I could buy koi at clem if we finish early!! :) hehe. super excited. cos I'm gonna try hazelnut!! nice (Y) bought caramel milk tea for sis. end up, mum also quite addicted to it lol!
though today was kind of 'wasted' but was really a good day I must say. P is 'back to normal' tht made me really happy :) its been a long time since I last had 'today'. I was really laughing and smiling frm my heart. Thankyou darling! iloveyou and I hope my everyday will be as good?
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yawnzzzz.

back to the 10-5pm sch. yawn, so tiring. marketing and economics were done together :( sucks. our books were all damn heavy! got to borrow from sis her dkny and I feel like I'm carrying a bomb!! hahah. it makes me feel very clumsy whenever I knock into ppl too! home aft sch. dinner and pigz!
jap class tonight! T.T kinda regret taking it up now, I dint know sch was this heavy!! need to stock up more chicken essence! :p
before I end my post, thankyou sis!! <3 she bought a dress for me again! :))
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damn!

waking up to a stupid cloudy weather tht don't allow me to go tanning! argh. well its okay, I woke up late too :s
Its the last day of hols with th p! :(
caught the switch with p at marina instead. nice (Y) :)
and had swensens for lunch. and back to p's. for the first time I don't feel hot at p's! rest. had dinner. and back he goes to the green man.
I kept sneezing and coughing all of a sudden on the way home! grr :( got to slp early tonight, it's gonna be a long day of sch tmr!
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Lots of things kept running in mind, and I've no idea why and wht is it. It made me look troubled.
it is only on sat when p's friend ask why am I so quiet thn I start to think why. I can't give an answer even for myself.
when I go to sch on mon, another friend of mine also asked me, why is my face so sour, and troubled. again, I can't give an ans, also to myself even until now.
I really dunoe why either! I dunoe wht is happening! :( isit p? sch? family? or wht? Idunoeidunoeidunoe!
hate myself for being so buttered fingers! I accidentally delete all p's text th previous time tht nw whenever I'm upset, I can't go back to them and read :(
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accomplised.

am quite statisfied with today. kinda productive :)
p picked me up in th mrng and we had breakfast at the coffeeshop below my house, very windy day so it wasn't tht bad! plus with my favourite, tht made it even better.
thn p asked if I wan to amk!
whyyy?
koikoi!
hehe cute right my boyf! <3
yes, tried my first koi but I've no idea why did I go try ovaltine but it wasn't tht bad though. I wan hazelnut luh!! don't care am gonna get it another day!
for th past few days I said I wanted to go and try it but we dint have the chance to. happy early in th mrng alre!
and got p a new adidas top :)
thn back to p's, rot, lunch. and helped him pack his wardrobe!! his super messy wardrobe. really can faint. another thing tht made me happy was seeing him happy :) though am abit tiring and my nose kept sneezing aft packing! <3
after so long, so many days/week, so many things had happened, today's the happiest <3
thankyou, sweet.
it makes me have back th feeling again.
k im waiting for him to finish thn go have dinner! bye!
i look forward to tmr's trip to sentosa!
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start of another new module

p had a marathon ytd mrng. its seems like a good one for him. yupp, so we met up aft tht and we literally rot for the rest of th day. had to cab home cos p's too tired to drive me home D:
its mondayyyyyyyyyy. which also means a new module starting. good thing I've only lesson for 3hours today! woah the textbook really hor, thick!! really heavy man. as usual my boyf hor, late lor! hehe. back to p's for dinner. MBS. and home. lol p and my first time!! very nice place! (Y)
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love to be loved by you.

waited for p to finish his photo shoot and he picked me up. lunch at p's. caught eat pray love w tres&zk at cine, kinda boring, p keep figgiting ard -.- lol. fish and co for dinner. home. a day gone just lik tht.
I guess today too :s its alre 1plus nw and I still otw to meet p!!
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my very first jap lesson!

creative. p's. Ikoma.
today's the first lesson of the jap lesson. and I was late :s but ahh I don't care, more time w p :) lesson wasn't tht bad, just felt abit lost :/
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it wasn't a very good day today, lots of things running in my mind I dontknow why, and made my mood go real down. I felt us rather awkward cos there's like something in btwn blocking us to move closer. everything feels so cold and stranger. crap. I hate this feeling. I just makes me feel hopeless :(
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me or you?

am kinda happy p is having a week of break till next wed! :)
we went baibai at loyang and tamp to look for my shoe, but no, I dint manage to find it :( I end my day w pastamania for dinner! finally!!
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I've been thinking all the way back, rewinding back all th things tht happened each day or maybe each week. I really wonder how can love, though just a very simple four letter word can cause so much things?
isit you or me. conflict, unhappiness, complains, arguments or whtever is it. wht actually went wrong. It was nvr tht bad, it really kept me in deep thoughts. I kept as quiet as I can today, and I realise actually everything was still almost the same. nthg much have changed. maybe I shld be lil more understanding, so tht I'll make it better. It was probably me, the one who's asking for more, wanting everything to be perfect, wanting you to still be the best like before, but ppl do change, it will either be better or worse. bcos I myself too, had changed for better/worse? but, I still feel something is lacking, blocking in btwn.. which might never make it better? there's too much things tht one can nvr have enough.
It was again bcos of love, one did it out of love, but dint bother whether it is a right thing anot, just bcos afraid of losing..
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Geez :))

Mummy bought me Gucci Flora! hehe.

I finally collected my specs and I don't have to go specless at home anymore!! My degree went high up to 3xx now!! :(( I really need to take care of my eyes and bring it down again! grr.
I hate the endless problems my parents are facing now, it just makes me feel helpless D:
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Fuitful weekends

I never had such a busy weekends for some time! P and I were out most of the time.
sat;
went army museum w tres&zk at Singapore Discovery Centre! we get to see all the army stuffs which wasn't very interesting but good thing we're at somewhere with aircon! And we get to play with the heavy gun, shooting at I dunoe wht. so it isn't tht bad uh. we left for safra to get some things done. thn to tres' & off for dinner. was home quite early, as we're gg JB th next mrng.

sun;
my first time to JB! very sua ku ah. i've heard lots of ppl going and I dunoe hw is it like. yupp, so we decided to go w tres&zk. I'm rather shocked by the distance from woodlands to thr! such a short distance only!! walk, shop, eat! back to p's aft tht. rest. and home!
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Itchy hands!

Starhub to get my phone changed, and its giving me endless problem even till now! damn itttt.
Party world-ed w sissy and mum ytd @ vivo! O.o hahah. I'm not very interested in elaborating! Hahahah. coffeebean-ed after tht for dinner. home!
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surprise from sis! :>

Thankyou!! <3

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Happy girl!

Awesome! I'm a happy girl now! I can blog using my phone with blogger's email posting! I always tot only iPhone users can. Heheeh.

I've not been updating for some time! :o School.Boyfriend.School.Boyfriend.
Hahah, as usual!
My mobile broadband broke down on mon!! I got to get it fixed tmr at vivo. So irritating. For the past few weeks, School's been tiring but yet a good one. SSPDP had finally came to an end! Met up with fiona ytd at town to get assignments done and only to found out tht th deadline is today instead of tmr :/ sotong me. So my essay is expected not to be a good one cos I had to rush it. Plussss there's 500words reflection and 1 resume to do! I stayed up till almost 3am last night to get it complete. Damn tiring! But really had a good sleep hehe. Tiil 11 or 12? ^^
I did nthg much the last weekends cos I'm bloody damn tired idy. Went for a run with p on sunday mrng, I stopped aft a few mins :s hahah. guess my stamina is slowly dropping. K, I'm gonna stop my wordy post and let the pictures do the talking!
Starting with the most recent!
P's parade on friday(24 Sep)

SSPDP Presentation.

Visit to SPCA for SSPDP presentation with Daron & CW!

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My first email posting!

Just trying out!
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ultra bad day

today was really damn bad for me :(

-i forgot to lock the door, i rmbr only when i went down the lift.

-i purposely went earlier down to have my brunch before gg to sch, the stall closed.

-otw to sch, im damn hungry till i feel like vomitting!

-thn everything goes smoothly in school.

-at night, everyone couldnt decide on a placeto meet, so all stay at home and do, thn all chat on msn. cfm unproductive. seriously. we'll see.

-i dint have th chance to talk alot to you. you seem to be very busy. not even a proper 10mins.

-when cousin's back, she passed me my parcel i was all excited, but when i opened, it wasnt the colour i want.

tell me suay anot! omg seriously.

where is th one who's always there for me to hear me complain when im down?

where is th one who'll calm me down and cheer me up when my day's in a messed?

feels like im asking alot. but aint all these things are like normal in the past? :(

sch again laterrrrrrr. damn sian please. at wilkie edge somemore D: ahhh last lesson alre anyw! thn the next few days, still got to meet up w team mates to do presentation. siann!! hahaha.
13sep;
went for mrng session ytd, cos i want more time with p! & p is bringing me to sch & fetching me aft sch!! shiok! if only everyday like tht...... no 1hr of travelling, no walking of such a long distance just to take bus home!! anddddd, i can have more slp!! hahah. p wasnt feeling well, and we got no idea wht to do, so again rot, tv, computer. hahah. quite standard uh. but i like (Y) we talk, we laugh, we play :) & i end my day with cheesefries!! hehehe yums.
11sep-12sep;
weekends zoom past just like tht, ohgod. so fast! p's back with lots of things from taiwan! hehehehe he really bought clothes for me though they all was kind of.....k la dont say. heknow iknow. hahah! its the though tht counts! hellokitty charm for sissy, and taiwan snacks! (Y)
ding tai fung with tres&zk on sat. my first time eating xlb aft hearing lots of ppl talking abt it!
caught going the distance aft tht. sweet movie, but th language is omg, awful!! hahah.
and there goes one day!
both were tired on sunday. cos of the lack of slp on fri night! p's back in sg at abt 3plus. home and packinf of stuffs all end up finishing only at 5plus! rot, tv, computer, thn we decided to go farrer park for a walk. and yes, there goes another day.

FINALLY!

this would probably be my last post and p will be back!! hehe. im not waiting for his bro to pick me up and we'll go airport to meet the p!! omg excited!! thoughhhh tireddd. AND IM VERY HUNGRY NOW!!

mummy drove us to get stocks today for ddg. home. photoshoot. dinner and i nap for few hours. yeah thts abt it. k bye!

hate going to bed mad at you

my day 20 without p.
its public holiday tmr!! which also meanssssss, p's gonna be back!! and i just realise i haven had th time to go visit p's parents and update him :s
& im all pissed tht makes me not very excited!! grr.
lost.lost.andreallyvery LOST! my brain is all thinking how and wht shld i do and looking at my phone for th whole damn day waiting for his text. omg.
on the side note, im rather relieved tht its th end of the week! i can take a break frm sch. everyday like rushing train again. totally drained. i cnt imagine how is my next few weeks gonna be and i dont want to think. real presentation is gonna come soon. thn followed by portfolio. :<
sch was a little relaxed only today cos mock presentation is over, we dont have to do anything. just listen. yeah, good thing. dinner with fren after sch. home. and i continue complaining to mummy again. and slp!

my day 19 without p.

the last 3 days!!!!!!!!

stupid p, dint call/text me for 2 days alre! omg. hateyou, idiot. missed you, and was a little worried yknow! suckerrrrr. kill u and bite u when you're back! grrr. damn angry!

sch in th mrng to prepare and touch up for presentation. yes, its mock presentation. was a little scared, its been some time i had to speak in front of the whole class again! :0 damn crap, seriously. hahah. i forgot my lines and i paused, damn. lucky grp mates help me a little at the back whispering to me! :/ omg. the actual one better not screwed up!! i hope it'll be a better one! home aft lesson. sissy wont be back tonight for art camp. was really drained aft dinner. need a good slp!!

my day 18 without p.
its getting closer..... hehehehe.
sch in th mrng to do presentation slides. lunch. lesson. home! and here i am blogging. k nthg much today actually. i only noe my shoulder is painfullllllllll cos i had to bring my netbook to sch and my bag is damn heavy today!

my day 17 without p.
breakfast with sissy in th mrng. i woke up just for her!! yes and here i am blogging. though im very lazy butt for p.... hhahah. a few parcels will be coming in hopefully today, excitedddd! :D
woahhhh u see. time is moving faster nw!! cant wait cant wait!! heheheh. this week is definitely gonna zoom fast! tmr, will have to rush presentation slides, thn its mock presentation on wed. nthg on thurs though. but th last day of th week cos fri is PH! andddddddd,

Santa Claus is coming to town!!!!!!

went to the doctor aft sch for my irritating eye. injury+irritation. no contact lens, no fringe for 2 damn weeks! nice one lorrrr >:( k im going dinner now and thn to bed! had been coughing for almost the whole day! damn.
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i caught daddy stealing food for dinner now!! hahahah.

yes ah! last weekend! :)

5th sep;

my day 16 without p.
its sunday!! p's gonna be back from field camp! i hope its wasnt an unpleasant one for him. but definitely very tiring for him!! fishing with uncle and sis in the mrng. not fun! >:( kinda bored, idky. but sis and i had a great time!! we were both really damn nonsense. lol. mumdad came with food aft tht for sis and i. home. spring cleaning and changing of bedsheet. thnnnnnn slp!! tired max.

4th sep;
my day 15 without p.
a very unproductive saturday.
sis went study with friend at westcoastplaza coffeebean. me rot at home. mum bought me lunch. thn rot again. thn th usual me, nthg to do, means slp!! hahaha. woke up for dinner. thn... back to slp. hahah.

my day 14 without p.

its friday, finally. just another week to go. it'll definitely be a fast one.

red eyes had been with me for days and it doesnt seem to get any better. isit bleeding or isit just sore or dirt? lol i've no idea. i just hope it'll go away soon!

creative this mrng. home now. and i want a nap badly!!! got to draft my presentation outline laterrrrrr. k bye.

my day 13 without p.

met up with grp mates to discussed abt presentation. lunch with fiona and friends. thn sch for lesson. home. dinner. and here i am. feeling veryveryveryery sleepy! k i want to end my post with something good! I GOT DISTINCTION FOR MATHS!!! AND PASS FOR ACCOUNTINGS!! at least till now i manage to pass everything, good. but th next 2 modules are the most worrying one! :( k i just hope everything will do good!! i need to go slp now and creative tmr.

had been spending quite alot on apparels recently. just 1 or 2 more and i promise to stop! (i hope i can!)

1sep;

my day 12 without p.

today's teachers' day and mehmeh's 19!!

but everything just slipped off my mind!

so here's to bly,

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY! :)

and mehmeh,

HAPPY 19TH! :)

school's hectic bcos of the timing, work, and everything. felt rather tired almost everyday aft sch, idky? i just want to go home, do nthg and slp! though its spread out to 3 weeks with only 3 hrs of lesson a day. but still feel quite packed. probably bcos of th amt of things we have to do? bcos of importance of this module? okay. stop whining. discussed a little things abt presentation. thn dinner with friend at harbourfront. & home.

me was quite shocked when i receive a text from p! they actually got back to camp bcos of th typhoon alert. he asked me something like, am i used to not having him ard o.o really made me ponder for some time why is he asking things lik tht!! but thank god, tht 5 min call and few text made me th 8 days feels short!! sunday is the end of outfield for p. thn mon another activity. tues is packing of stuff at camp. thn wed-fri i shopping time! and p's back!! :) i really look forward to!! but for now, ive to finish a few things! outline to be handed in next tues! mock presentation next wed & thurs!

i looked at my calendar planning for stuffs thn i realise, i dont have much time to slack! :( i need to start my assignment asap so tht i wont do last min work!! go, me!

my day 11 without p.

SLOW SLOW SLOW is all i can say!

my post are always late cos i seldom use the comp! why doesnt blackberry have an app for blogger! only wordpress D: had been shopping online alot lately. sis luh! showed me this web tht have really lots of apparel! want to buy only! sighh. i must really do something abt it! k i gtg bathe and do my hmwk and off to sch! hate afternoon class. veryvery unproductive, seriously.

26aug;

my day 6 without p.

its 26th!!! its a special day for someone!

HAPPY 27th <3

hope you had fun on your birthday!

orientation at school today for the start of dip next monday! boringggg. left aft the first session. bugis with fiona and the usual group. bought a new pants. yamiyogurt. & home! i think i had only cinnamon melts and yamiyogurt for the whole half a day until dinner...

27aug;

my day 7 without p.

finally a week...! feels like i've did lots of things alre. and many days had passed. but its still only a week..

creative w mum. & home.

always planned to do my assignment but i just kept procrastinating.. bcos the assignment is really difficult.

28aug;

my day 8 without p.

sch on a saturday morning for test. bbq chicken @ westcoastplaza aft tht to celebrate for sissy's 17 with mum. shopped a little thr. &home. i planned to do my assignment, but i dint again. look at how slack i am.

29aug;

my day 9 without p.

p called in th mrng before he leave for his 8days field camp. clementi & jurongeast for a few errands. home. uncle's factory at woodlands for 7th month thingy. jiejie is back with mum and my coach wallet! th light papaya colour is awesome! i dint know they have colours lik tht :( i think i no fate with the bag i want ah? when they have, jie is unsure if the colour is th one i wanted at orlando. thn she couldnt find it at san diego. sighh. home aft tht. and i chionged my assignment. i dont hope for good grades here. i just wan a pass so tht i don have to remodule.

30aug;

my day 10 without p.

its the start of dip! finally! bridging course over!

HAPPY 17th SIS! <3

wrapped up my assignment in th mrng. sch at 2 today. vivo to meet mumdadsissy for sissy's 17 celebration at earle swensens. horrible :s shopped a little. & home.

sissy got a new adidas shoe from mumdad, which is almost similar to mine! only colour difference.

hate to miss you; hate this kind of distance

23aug;
my day 3 without p.
i had sch! yupp so as usual sch at 10, end at 1. bought lunch and went to the doctor. home. eat medicine. rest. sleep. yes & thts one day for a sick me.

24aug;

my day 4 without p.

sian. its only the 4th day!! i miss p really alot! alot more than usual! creative in th mrng though i was still unwell. but mum needs help so yeah, i just have to endure for a few hours. lucky i dint blur and everything went smooth. home aft tht. sleep, medicine, eat, sleep. & again another day.

25aug;

my day 5 without p.

im not getting better!! mum says bcos im not having a mild flu. its quite serious. sooo, it'll take some time.

woke up to a very early morning. i dunoe why. so i nua-ed on bed for awhile. wash up and had bread for breakfast. had my medicine. thn aft a short while, im feeling hungry, i really cant find any food! so, i had another piece of bread with plain water. sounds pathetic huh. k tht makes me full a short while. went sch to meet fiona to do assignment. thnnnn i feel hungry again, so we went to the cafe and get snacks. aft eating. im still hungry AGAIN! thnnnnn, we had pasta. i keep feeling hungry right! all bcos of the medicine!! i dint eat it with a full stomach! thts why! hahaha. lesson learnt! & im scared of getting gastric! both did for a short while and felt tired and restless. thn.... we started to side tracked a little! thnnnn, we pack up and go. haha. was a little not productive today, cos we totally had no idea wht to do la thts why. home. dinner. and here i am blogging. k im gonna shower, eat my medicine & off to bed!

i think p wont be texting me today :( sad ttm!!

k im gonna finish this post quick cos im having a damn bad flu now! and i cant really rmbr wht i did the last weekend D:

14-15Aug;

p came to pick me up in the mrng, had breakfast deluxe at macs. back to p's. lunch in the noon. steamboat for dinner at zk's. we both slept till real late on sun, cos we were both very tired! p came to pick me up in the noon. back to his place & had lunch. thn we went shengshiong to shop for some stuff. and spend th rest of the day rotting at home. its the last weekend before p fly ):

19aug;

ended sch at one. lunch w friends. did a little touching up for presentation on fri. thn off to meet the p. was quite early when i reach. sooo, i decided to surprise him and wait for him outside the camp instead. so, the kehkiang me, tried my luck and walked thr from joo koon station!! hahah. it was really far!! my toes were all painful aft tht, and my face damn red. cos of the hot weather! waited for about an hour and p's finally out. bus to boonlay station & train back to p's. dinner at kfc. went plazasing & p bought a pants. home aft tht!

20aug;

the last day before p flys! but i had sch :( p is gg sch with me!! heheh. so excited. for the first time i dont have to take public transport to sch! p drove me to sch!! nice (Y) had breakfast at hans cafe. parted as i had to go for my presentation, and he went walking ard while waiting for me. back to p's aft presentation as i have a long break. lunch at p's and back to sch again. p went shopping for things he need. had tau huay with fiona and daron while waiting for p. went heeren to get my blouse from zoe and thn back to cathay for astons. it was a really damn long queue. so we had pastamania at plazasing instead. back to p's. and my mood really went down. bcosssss, p's gonna fly in a few hours time. was damn upset, kept crying :( airport with th p at 11plus. was quite early. so we sat down and wait. i cant control for the fact tht he's really going in soon, & i started tearing again. omg. my eyes were all red and swollen! hugged and kissed goodbye before we part :( home at abt 2.

21aug;

my day 1 without p.

its flea at st james! couldnt wake up in th mrng but still i forced myself to. woke up at 8plus to prepare and stuff. breakfast with sissy at coffeeshop & cabbed down. tres reached at almost the same time. was really tired and i kept complaining. sales was bad. sold only 2 piece. well at least better than th previous time? :) mumdad came to fetch us back. bought macs otw. maggie, nuggets, fries, cinnamon melts for late lunch! took a nap and i woke up to a horrible sore throat, which makes me lose appetite for dinner :( p is definitely gonna nag if he know! :s corn soup, steam fish and vege for dinner by mum. awesome (Y) & tht goes one day. i look forward for more days to be down! i need a good rest! was really tired till i can barely open my eyes. fall aslp while waiting p's text. but i still wake up just to reply him!

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before i end my post, i want to say something to my precious one.

thankyou for everything, really. you made me really happy and blessed having u. sillyboy went to order this bouquet of flower before he fly and had it send to my house on sat just to make me happy. i teared the moment i saw th card writing its frm you even before i read th message. i teared even more and smiled even wider as i read. tht is how happy i am. thankyou, it was really a better day for me. ill stay strong and wait for u to be back as promised. and ill blog everyday just for you. thankyou, darling. iloveyou <3

22aug;

my day 2 without p.

woke up to a very bad flu and sore throat. really very uncomfortable sneezing non stop. waiting for mum to be back with lunch. gg for a haircut tonight. for now, im gonna go have a nap. i hope i get better when im up!

i finally have th time to update after so long. k la, actually im just lazy at times and i kept procrastinating thats why, hahahaha. lets see, what have i done for the past 2 weekends!

31jul;
p is finally back from field camp, but only able to book out in the late afternoon. make me wake up quite early thinking that he might be booking out in the morning :( hahah. sis made breakfast, while i do th washing. went baibai with mum while waiting for p & picked him up on th way home :) went to p's, had dinner, tv and home.

1aug;

its aug! hahah. caught blood pledge, really a nice movie (Y) abit scary though. but i find it rather meaningful :) thnn i cant rmbr wht happened. i think we shopped a little and back to p's :) thn back to th green man.

2-6aug;

its another one whole of hell week, hate the rush. ahhh whatever, its over anyw. k, all i hope is, i wont do very badly for this module! but p's night out destress me and cheered me up a little. hahah. happy to see him. though we dint talk much :(

7aug;

p had to stay in camp. so, vivo with mum&sis. sis and i bought a shoe each! :)

8-11aug;

a real long holiday for p & me! :)

promised p tht ill let him rest on sunday thn he'll bring me out for dinner @newtoncircus. but who knowsssss hahah zk&tres went to p's and dragged him out. so we went ecp cycling. veryvery tiring for me and my legs! shows tht i haven been exercising for a long time :s so this will be a good exercise for me! hahah. my leg were feeling very jelly and my knee is painful. awesome p piggyback-ed me for a short while and i had to walk myself again :( had cinnamon melts and spicy nuggets after tht and a good dinner @newtoncircus.

breakfast on monday mrng w mumdadsis and p @ chinatown yum cha. awesome. dim sum there was a little expensive, but its nice, worth it! hehehe. took new polaroid after breakfast & went seperate ways. thn p and i went for a walk ard thr :) back to p's. watched the ndp parade. thn p played with pooh. aww so cute! hehe. and we actually planned to go coldrock/prata before i go home. but p's stomach was a little naughty & went wrong at the wrong time! D: yeah, soo he rested at home while i had to go home myself :(

hahah so cute, he started playing w pooh using it to salute.

i like to see the way p hug pooh hahah cutee <3

thn th next morning, sillyboy thought i was mad at him, and came with a bouquet of flowers in th mrng. hahah. but i was really a little sad and mad at him! though it wasnt his fault. but just really damn upset lor! hate to go home myself! >:( went breakfast @ market. thn back to p's. rest for a short while, was having a bad flu due to the lack of rest. caught salt w p&frens. packed dinner and home. :)

p had a haircut! haha so cute. make his face look small and round.

wed, had kfc breakfast w p after seeing the doctor and did assignment for the rest of the day! ofcos sidetrack-ed a little in the midst. heheh.

i just got a text from p saying tht he's booking out tmr at 4! aww so good! so not used to seeing him for so many days! hahahah. but, after this weekend, p is gg taiwan already :( sucks. for a real long 3 weeks!

thanks baby.

as promised, my darling p gave me a good weekend! :)

had kfc like finally with p for lunch. thn shop little. p's. and this is when th fun starts!! p brought me to helipad at clarke quay. thn zirca/rebel. awww funfunfun. i had fun, but again i dropped my bracelet. :( sighhh.

sunday was a little crappy. time is passing so fast tht i just dont wan th weekends to end :( not bcos i dowan sch, not bcos i wan to play. but, i dowan p to go taiwan so fast!!! :( p told me lots of things tht made me tear, i really cant control! but something tht i can really never forget is him telling me, everytime i book in, you're the one i worry the most. the day ended with both us feelling very emotional. :( totally feels like when he just got enlisted last year! oh no, this time is worse than tht!

presentation ytd. good? bad? i dunoe. but i think its good enough tht everyone had put in efforts? sighhh. had a short phone call with last night before he goes for his tues-sat's field camp. thn again, both were quite sadd :( alright, i shld stop thinking about it! when sat comes, tht means end of module and i can see p again! im so looking forward to it!! i dowan anything this coming week. i just want a movie and a nice lunch/dinner with you :)

why again?

accounting's tough. accounting's is very messy. i hate accounting so much tht i always try to siam from it. butt nowwww, im back to studing it again. and if im not wrong, my diploma needs this module as well!! :( sucks. had been shopping online recently in th morning before gg sch. saw 2 very nice dress, a romper and a panel skirt. still thinking if i shld get it? :( i hate how i cant splurge on things i want now. ever since sch, ive been spending alot! and i need to save and help mum a little for sch fees as well D: ohh andddd, finally had time to photoshoot for ddg ytd! a-w-e-s-o-m-e! pretty fun!! :) k, i cant wait to go to sch, and finish sch thn dinner & shopping with tres this evening! :)

my saturday was awful, and an unploeasant one. sighhhh. i dontwant to say anything abt ittttt.
k sunday! breakfast with th p at market, despicable me 3D, astons, p's. everything is just so awesome. yummy breakfast tht starts my day feeling a little happy. nice movie tht made me even happier. and again, really yummy late lunch at astons made me happy max! i love tht day. bcos p and i were both very happy :) now, i cant wait for the next weekend.
everytime i look at the calendar, i'd frown. bcos... p is gg taiwan in a month's time... :(

sch's been good. but th quiz's a killer! hope everything goes well! had another good long weekend with th p last week :)

9july;

wanted to go for a swim with p, but swimming complex were closed due to yog :( went for manicure instead :s

10july;

its FLB3! bad! :( sales wasnt good at all. sis and mum mend the stall, while p and i went shopping :p wanted to catch a movie, but seatings wasnt good. soo, we had to watch it on sunday instead. walked ard. and p brought me to this very nice bar for dinner :) singapore sling made me puke and laosai-ed for two days!! hahahaha. tht p. i dowan to say anything more! he know, i know. but i really enjoy tht evening. i love tht evening. thn back to look for sis and mum & home :)

thankyou, p. <3 you tons.

11july;

caught 9 temples. abit too confusing. p bought me another new jacket :s tried to cheat me to somewhere else but apparently he FAILED!!! (: p's and yes, back he goes to green man.

i cant really rmbr wht happened the lastlast week.

2-4july;

i only rmbr having dim sum with p and friends. and had prata on sunday morning! :s hahahh. my blog looks damn nonsense now. but i still wanna update, so i can rmbr every single thing with p all are good memories.